How is your day going?

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  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    Another message disappearing...anyway. It willhave to be a lot shorter..

    I am cutting. Drastically my scratch cards playing by only playing two days a week . I was playing almost every day. I should cut my gambling. Even more. Lottery is another one. I have do something about it.

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  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    Messages are disappearing....

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,338 Championing

    Maybe I feel everything has changed dramatically noting looks or feels the same the fear is off the scale trying so hard to battle this feel like I'm in a different world I'm not going mad I'm aware of my feelings and I've never felt this before feels very scary

  • geoffu
    geoffu Online Community Member Posts: 12 Listener

    my day… no week has been a rollercoaster! one min alls going great then it hits a wall full speed! 😵‍💫

    im having problems with my dads probate basically! long story short… the gov probate office insist i sent them a copy when its the only copy! so if this messes up im down £300 i cant afford and no probate! (mind you, if that happens ill prob end up doing p o admin which will be interesting too! and another £270 which i cant afford! 🤬🤬)

    but on the positive side… its not raining! 😂😂

    i think ill go try play a game on my xbox… hmm choices choices! 😂😂

  • Albus_Scope
    Albus_Scope Posts: 11,423 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    They're not disappearing @Schildpad as I'd explained on the other discussion, our new keyword filter caught your comments, which we then have to manually release. So they're not gone, they're just waiting to be checked by us. It's a bit sensitive, so I think it didnt like you saying mentioning gambling. Apologies.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    Ok.. I am cutting on it.. I can not forget about today's incident . I am traumatized by the experience. I might just rather not interact with people...

  • Albus_Scope
    Albus_Scope Posts: 11,423 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Can I just confirm you mean you're cutting back on your scratchcards @Schildpad ?

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    I am very tired and confused and angry with myself and many things at the same time. Why life has to be so unfair . I did not want that incident to happen to myself... I hope it will pass. But my anxiety is sky high.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,338 Championing

    It's ok be easy on yourself it's hard navigating life people I've done it myself felt shaky angry afterwards it passes trust me I hear you on anxiety sky high mine too off the scale make a cup of tea take time out and settle yourself

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,338 Championing

    Wow I just came across Carl jung titled The Dangers of seeing what others don't! Blew my mind of why I'm feeling the way I am I'm convinced adhd autism gives you a sixth sense from a child I've had great abilities to read people and a room I absorb people's energy that's why I've isolated for years as I get burnt out wow was such an intreasting article

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    I am trying to skip messages related to benefits.. there is a lot of scaremongering to make people feel very scared. ... It keeps happening...if I get a letter I deal with it. But media wants us to be scared.

    I am scared about everything but I have worried too much in the past and it did not happen. It is better not to worry . And I know it is hard writing this while my heart is racing…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    I am. Cutting on it. And also lottery etc .

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    I wsnt to cut completly but I am better than before as it was very bad.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,338 Championing

    Thats good you do volunteering and get out I'm really isolated

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering
    edited August 28

    I want to stop them altogether the cards that is.. Hopefully soon. . I am considering some changes for next year. I really need to find something I can do workwise.. relaying on the system is very scary And it is always the possibility of losing the benefits. So I need to try something. .retiring age is far away and not sure what will i get. but future is so uncertain…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    @Catherine21 i am in a way volunteering … but it is only for a few hours on mondays wednesdays and fridays . i am a volunteer and member at the same time. on thursdays i am a member of another place.. so i am trying to go out and meet people. but today left me really bad. i am a very kind person but sometimes i overreact.. but i feel i am over doing it.. too much . but the feeling of the uncertain is worse. so i do not know what to do really.

  • Albus_Scope
    Albus_Scope Posts: 11,423 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    A few hours is still great @Schildpad so you're doing great. 😊

    Have you thought about what kind of work you'd like to do?

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    @Catherine21

    considering cutting off caffeine as well… that is another thing. maybe caffeine free stuff. i hope tomorrow i will feel better, now i regret the situation and i would probably let it go if it happens again. and do nothing but it is now too late. anyway.. i am waiting for the time to go to bed. maybe a film or two and bed time. but i completely lost my appetite.

  • WelshBlue
    WelshBlue Online Community Member Posts: 954 Championing
    edited August 28

    @Grumpy1314 as a fellow petrol-head have you watched Junk & Disorderly, Bangers & Cash and Salvage Hunters Classic Cars … they're about the only things I watch on TV

    All informative but ever so slightly depressing. From oil cans to cars if only I'd known what the things I gave away or scrapped would be worth today

    One being the shell and running gear of a Ford Mk 3 RS 1600i … I had no room for it so gave it away. Worth upwards of £20,000 just as a non runner. Hindsight is such a wonderful thing

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 754 Empowering

    @Albus_Scope with my ptsd from my previous job i do not really want to do anything similar to that job.. it will have to be something very quiet. but i am considering to do something. i need to be diagnosed properly.. i am sure i have autism and ptsd and adhd but only diagnosed as anxiety and depression. i am finally got a referral to the anxiety clinic . i hope they accept me.. and i can try to start treatment and it works. and maybe the find out if i have something else other that anxiety and depression that i am sure i have. i think nobody will want to hire me. as i have too many issues mentally and physically but also visually. i have mentioned before i have nf1 .not many companies will accept me.. maybe one that deals with similar people. i will see.. my friend says she could not be in my situation relying on the system etc.. and i can not blame her it is so distressing. my resolution is really find something i can do. maybe part time. maybe only one day a week. or two and move to more days little by little.

    i am thinking about museums etc.. one of those where people are sitting down checking people are not touching the paintings etc… maybe a shop art related or the museums shops. it has to be something art related as i am a bit knowledgeable .all my volunteering is on that field. but maybe also helping people with benefits etc.. i like helping people. even though i sometimes lose my temper like today and normally it does not happen. but when it happens….. well it is done now.