How do you start the day with your disability?

Sorry I've only just seen this response. I could ask people on here if they're willing, but I don't think there will be people who'll let their guard down. Yes they are good ideas you suggest, and maybe I'll ask and see who is interested.

I understand that it isn't easy to make friends with people on the internet because you don't know what they'll be like. However, I think there's a lot of overthinking that influences people's decision-making. I think to myself why am I so kind and courteous, but when I extend friendship online people bat it down instead of taking a chance. I'm sorry you feel that way about online friendships, though some of the most difficult things in life take time to adjust to and what you may not like now could be worthwhile if you take the chance. I have fretted about speaking to an audience of people, but now I do stand-up comedy. I used to want everyone to like me, now I only entertain those who actually care about me.

I don't know if I've already said this, but I'm usually the one to strike up conversations with my mates, I put in the effort, I do what I can. However, not many people are receptive, and that's why I feel as though asking people to take a chance won't yield desirable results. There aren't many people who are like me, there aren't many people who've been denied time and time again despite being genuine, kind and honest. I get it though, it's what our culture has built and it's not my design that causes their timidity.

Yes true, though a DM is a format where conversations can be exchanged more appropriately I think. Yes, I have tried Meetups and I have scheduled one that's happening soon. The only place I feel I belong outside of my family is Andy's Man Club, which allows me to talk about things openly with other men. I would love a partner of course, though there's something I'm not doing correctly as to why I haven't found one yet.

I find stand-up to be as challenging as all the surgeries as I had to have a shunt change due to my Hydrocephalus, and might be as daunting as my parents' enduring their uncertainty that I'd even survive what I went through as a baby. I take that pain with me every day along with others, but I do love to be silly and joke about, so that's where my comedy comes in.

I undertook a course throughout August and September, and I've currently done two gigs. I agree, I just have to let things happen organically and enjoy the moments :)

Comedy is something that I have only discovered because of Andy's Man Club-a charity for men's mental health. They recommended that I give it a shot, and it is because of them that I have done it. But there's a side of me that's much much deeper. I have an extreme empathy and compassion for people, and I write for various websites as well. But I don't want it to be all about me, which is what I worry I do sometimes. I really care about what other people do and their skills fascinate me and I want connection and friendship because that's the light that keeps us driving forward. I really appreciate you kind words of support :)