How is your day going?

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  • SmellyBin
    SmellyBin Online Community Member Posts: 74 Contributor

    I am sorry for your pain, Catherine. We haven't met yet on this forum, I am thinking, but it can indeed be difficult when people seemingly turn towards joy and repress the sorrow. However, life is both, ain't it? Could be an interesting topic to pursue, if there wasn't so much shame and such around difficult subjects. What is it that things often need to look Instagrammable?

    Hang in there.

  • Kiki23
    Kiki23 Online Community Member Posts: 182 Empowering
    edited November 9

    Please dont delete your account Catherine. You have helped me so much in the short space of time ive been on here simply by being your genuine, honest sincere self! Your kindness, strength and courageous spirit is needed. Please don't let 1 or 2 insensitive responses be the reason for deleting your account 😻

    Still I Rise…By Maya AngelouYou may write me down in history
    With your bitter, twisted lies,
    You may trod me in the very dirt
    But still, like dust, I'll rise.

    Does my sassiness upset you?
    Why are you beset with gloom?
    ’Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
    Pumping in my living room.

    Just like moons and like suns,
    With the certainty of tides,
    Just like hopes springing high,
    Still I'll rise.

    Did you want to see me broken?
    Bowed head and lowered eyes?
    Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
    Weakened by my soulful cries?

    Does my haughtiness offend you?
    Don't you take it awful hard
    ’Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
    Diggin’ in my own backyard.

    You may shoot me with your words,
    You may cut me with your eyes,
    You may kill me with your hatefulness,
    But still, like air, I’ll rise.

    Does my sexiness upset you?
    Does it come as a surprise
    That I dance like I've got diamonds
    At the meeting of my thighs?

    Out of the huts of history’s shame
    I rise
    Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
    I rise
    I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
    Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

    Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
    I rise
    Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
    I rise
    Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
    I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
    I rise
    I rise
    I rise.

  • Zippy1983
    Zippy1983 Online Community Member Posts: 159 Empowering

    I’m going to watch Nuremberg with Remi Malek and Russel Crowe

  • Rosie_Scope
    Rosie_Scope Posts: 7,139 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Ooh nice @Zippy1983, I've heard that's good. Have a great time if you do manage to go ☺️

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 752 Empowering

    Catherine this forum tell us that is the world is not as nice but there is always hope.... I have bad days and sometimes good days but I would never pretend is a good day If is bad. People are in a terrible state and other not so much. The forum is about accepting things are bad but will not be forever. And since there are people worse than us. It does bring hope that things could be worse and also could be better. I would not delete the account. This forum is helping me .... Encourage me to carry on in very bleak times.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 752 Empowering

    until tomorrow…. ok. i hope i will be ok .. have a very good rest…. and painless…… as restful as possible….. good night

  • Zippy1983
    Zippy1983 Online Community Member Posts: 159 Empowering

    Must admit as the days gone on my mood has soured more and more. I know I’ve got a gp appointment for my gastric system on Wednesday, but in all honesty I don’t want to leave the flat, same with the cinema on Saturday. I keep questioning what’s wrong with me, what’s my worth and in all honesty the whole purpose of breathing. I don’t call the flat home, more like a prison! The last true home I had was with my ex wife where I had a life, now I’ve just got nothing. Just have nothing in my life or anything to keep me going, each day I wake up I I’m always disappointed. I’m not talking about a certain thing that would trigger alarms. I just wouldn’t act on anything, I’d just let nature take its cause over the coming years.

  • Santosha12
    Santosha12 Online Community Member Posts: 3,024 Championing
  • Zippy1983
    Zippy1983 Online Community Member Posts: 159 Empowering

    I’ve sent an email to my GP surgery cancelling my appointment on Wednesday, couldn’t care less about my physical or mental health. Even though I need to have flu and Covid jabs, I think they can go by the wayside. Cinema wise not a good idea to go, knowing me I’d fall asleep like I’ve done in the past. I’m going to cancel the meeting with the area coordinator, I did say I wanted to work on targets to help me live again and frankly there isn’t any point in doing so. Gonna just run myself into the ground further and further, going to do the bare minimum to get through each day.

  • Santosha12
    Santosha12 Online Community Member Posts: 3,024 Championing

    I really hope you don't go @Catherine21 😔. Thankfully, there are far more people on here that are genuinely supportive and show empathy (and remember you are one who does and helps others too!) than those who do not. Those who do not may, in time, learn 🫠😊; who knows, one can always hope 😉😊. You've every right to express how you're feeling - good or bad - the same as anyone else has. With hugs to you xx

  • Zippy1983
    Zippy1983 Online Community Member Posts: 159 Empowering

    Is it bad that I’ve decided to give up all fighting, decided to accept things as they are and just don’t care about myself or what happens to me. Gonna start withdrawing meds over time, just don’t see the point in taking a placebo every night. Gonna just cut them off as of tomorrow and chuck them in the bin. I’m a horrible person, failure to family, so called friends and those that I’ve lost. Just gonna disappear and become like one of those people forget lives in the flat above. All that check on your neighbours doesn’t apply to me.

  • Chris75_
    Chris75_ Online Community Member Posts: 3,834 Championing

    A mild day i think today, i shall be glad to save on my heating bill!

  • xodza
    xodza Online Community Member Posts: 154 Contributor

    Good morning to everyone starting bit. Cold. Find if layer up clothes helps think harder because can’t move around a lot due to pain

  • SmellyBin
    SmellyBin Online Community Member Posts: 74 Contributor

    You are not a bad person, Zippy! Please take care of yourself and be safe.

  • luvpink
    luvpink Online Community Member Posts: 3,211 Championing

    Morning all.

    Its lashing with rain here but I'm not going out so I get the pleasure of seeing it from my windows.

    I hope you all manage to have a good day.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 752 Empowering
    edited November 10

    Good morning everybody. I hope you are ok. Maybe not much pain.. I am not that bad pain wise today. A not very nice weather today, but I have to go out. Hopefully it will not rain. It is not cold. Let's see how it goes. I am always feel very scared and anxious on Monday. Maybe i Will feel better later on.... Have a good day.

  • Rosie_Scope
    Rosie_Scope Posts: 7,139 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Morning everyone ☺️ any plans for the day?

    Glad that you're not in too much pain today @Schildpad, enjoy your day!

    I know you may not feel like caring for yourself right now @Zippy1983, but we all care about you and wouldn't like to think you were struggling alone. Please don't stop your medication cold turkey even if it feels like you're taking a placebo. It can make things feel much worse to suddenly stop. Maybe you can make the trip to the cinema another time when it feels more manageable. Hope there are some better days ahead for you.

  • Katiedimelow20
    Katiedimelow20 Online Community Member Posts: 247 Connected

    Hi, another awful and I'm only feel safe here . Compare to my parents. My mum is kept getting worse when I want to set my boundaries. I'm done with my mum and I give up since my mum kept providing me that my mum is never going to change. I'm always frustrated, anger and anxious most of time .

  • SmellyBin
    SmellyBin Online Community Member Posts: 74 Contributor

    Today I am telling myself 'you don't need to be strong,' which makes everything look a little less strained… trying to be kind to myself.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 752 Empowering
    edited November 10

    I am back . It was very quiet. But at least I left home .. I hope tomorrow will not be raining.... Good night .