19 years of chronic pain

Hi, my name is lena and I have been chronic pain sufferer for nigh on 19 years now. My source of pain is from my back and the 4 major surgeries I've had for disc problems.
Four years ago I was diagnosed with cauda equina syndrome and was left with drop foot and my left foot turning in and parathesis in both legs, but worse in my left and in my genital area, I have bladder,bowel and sexual dysfunction. 
Just last week I was rushed to hospital with really bad bleeding from my rectum and diagnosed with diverticular disease and I was having a flare up, diverticularitis. Since then I've had anaphylaxis due to antibiotics and still have chronic diarrhoea, inspite of a 3 day water diet. I am about to begin another spell of 3 days on water. 
Thanks for listening
Lena