Stenosis

I've been very I'll had very poor treatment from the NHS. Its been a fight from the start to get treated my hospital failed several guidelines. However, l opted to go to other hospitals but feel total exhausted with it all. 
18 mths ago l could stand up. They had reported on my MRI scans there was degeneration of the spine. 
After being messed around again l was referred to the pain clinic. I was having issues with pain walking my right arm and hand swollen and my thumb. 
As I've got osteoarthritis in every joint l was referred to the pain clinic! Where l was told we look at you as a whole you have many issues, we can look at further xrays, medication etc. 
Because I'd waited so long l had an xrays and treatment with a chiropractor. 
l was assessed by this guy who l later proved he was wrong. He said l had fybromaliga and that was it. I was referred to a chap. Who honestly read and gave me a leftlet outlining all they could do. I constantly complained about my neck, headaches problems with weakness in my arm and hand, swelling of the hand you can see. 
l asked about my medication being looked at. And help with adult social services as they advised me to go through them. I asked and waited felt embarrassed as l kept asking. 
Showed my xrays told they dont read them. lm the end my friend a consultant took them onto work to show her colleagues and they said l needed an urgent MRI as my neck looked very bad. 
My doctor had to refer me for an MRI. The results was my neck is very bad with severa spondylitis and I've got stenosis. 
Due to me bring closterphobic l had to wait for my lumber spine to be looked at. 
I was fairly disgusted that the xrays showed l had curvature of the spine although mild. Which was shown in tbe xrays from the chiropractor. 
lts like I've been fobbed off l did wonder why l was going.. handed sheets of exercises half l couldnt do. 
I became very disillusioned with my so called physio. He seemed not to know anything and would only address fybromaliga. Then covid hit and l had a video call with him. He couldnt get the sound on and although l was saying to him l cant hear you he just stared at me not gesturing anything or actually responding to my sign language or verbal, he could hear me. ld requested to see a psychologist as l was diagnosed with PSTD. 
When ever l asked him he said you will be discussed at a meeting. I was making no progress after 3 mths. 
I had heated words with this physio I'd lost faith in the fact nothing was being done. 
l rang up and complained. 
l said to the women l spoke to after 3 mths and asking l got no straight forward reply l got not further with anything. 
Turns out they couldnt change my medication I'd have to speak to my DOCTOR!! ? l could have done that before. Turns out and l have it from there manager that "They ignore ppl that complain about pain, as it's often just in their head" l got him to repeat it twice! l said but in my case it wasnt!! 
The physio I had l had to bite my tongue when l asked to be referred to adult services for help in tbe house My bed/stairs etc. He said oh I'm not happy for that to happen. l did then say well it's up to them to assess me in my home.. He then sat on the form for a further two weeks before submitting it.. Having to go over the same details we covered two weeks previously. 
l was then referred to someone else. I'd been referred to a neurosurgeon in tbe mean time who arranged a lumber spine MRI
She spoke about meds and said she would write to my doctor. She then sent me some exercises sheets and has recently said well thanks but we can end your sessions. Clearly because l complained. Actually the exercises arent that great. 
I've had my results from the MRI I've got degenration/spondylitis in my lumber back. 
lm constantly in pain. So he has referred me back to my doctors in the mean time and if things changed. 
I was referred about my bladder thinking it could be a cause. lve mentioned my shoulder pain weakness in arm and hand he has seen tbe swollen hand. 
lm just exhausted with it all tbh. 
I suffer with depression but this whole matter has made me feel even worse. Where do l go from here? 
lf you pay to see a physio it's far better treatment I'd really like to know where this is. 
My treatment from my trust has been very poor all the way through from them missing septis to a whole in my bladder l had to beg for a scan and l was right to a fisular which was left for two years. They were going to remove part of my bowel, thank god they didnt!! 
lm exhausted.. 
Sorry for the very long post x 
Could anyone give me any advice, thank you x 
It doesnt help l live alone and have no family