Really high anxiety

It seems like the evening/night time is your worst time. I've honestly run of advice to give. I realise it's extremely difficult for you but you have to reach out for some help yourself because no one here can do that for you.

That sounds really great that they were offering to phone the local authority for you Agnia. Perhaps you should take them up on that offer because they are trying to help and you are finding it hard to reach out for the help by yourself from the local authority because you are struggling so much.

With regards to food have you tried doing your food shop online? While I’ve been staying with my mum and dad before my care home move, I’ve been paying my way and wanting to be useful and so I am in charge of the food shopping. I can’t go out by myself to get it so instead of mum having to drive for the shopping for us all I started doing it online because for three of us it would be too much even for me and dad to carry home between us. We’ve found the online shopping to be a very good experience. We use Tesco and the delivery drivers are all very friendly. I have friends that use Waitrose and ASDA. They all have similar good experiences. They are even helpful and carry the food to the kitchen for my friend who is physically disabled.

Also in the past me and some of my friends have used Wiltshire Farm Foods who sell ready meals but they are healthy ones. They are cooked all healthy and fresh ingredients then frozen straight away, not filled worth salt and additives.they are good if you can’t cook because they only need to go in the microwave so are very handy even handy if you have a carer coming in but doesn’t have a long visit because they can make the meal quickly and it’s still healthy. The delivery drivers are very good with that service. They bring the food in and out it away in your freezer for you if you want them to and they also explain how to heat each thing and they teach you how to use your microwave. You get the same driver every time and they always show their ID card.

Also it might be worth checking if there are any meals on wheels type schemes available near you where they deliver hot meals ready to eat. They can be an absolute lifesaver as well for many people.