My fears - Gas lighting

serenity2
serenity2 Community Member Posts: 246 Empowering
in Mental health and wellbeing
Hi.
I have had a **** conscious fear that due to my mental health   if at anytime I were trying to reach out and get help and support if it got complex I may not be believed or questioned as to if things really happened. I struggle with anxiety and I guess it’s gas lighting I have a fear of, can’t think of anything worse than not being believed in a fearful situation.

Im feeling those fears are happening to me. I think because due to me struggling with anti social behaviour I’ve been asked to keep a diary so some things are thoughts not facts. And also so much has happened to me since December I can understand someone thinking wow this person can’t have been so unlucky, one thing gets resolved and something else seems to begin. I find it unbelievable too and extremely anxiety ridden. 
Since being questioned about it it has truly knocked me for 6 I really am now feeling I don’t want to speak up for fear of not being believed or it’s thought it’s due to my mental health. It’s a dreadful position to be in. A very lonely scarey place. I’ve reached out a lot and even that now feels like I’ve reached out too much and everyone feels I’m a nuisance or over reacting, I know I’m not ,and the things happening are very real. But the feelings won’t go away making me afraid to keep reaching out…

Thanks for listening guys it feels so difficult right now 

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  • Sandy_123
    Sandy_123 Scope Member Posts: 63,231 Championing
    Hi @serenity2 sorry you feel not believed if you reach out. Plenty of support here and no one will judge you.

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