Mental health has taken a battering
I hope this is ok to post, as a lot of people here due to the recent news of the benefits cuts my mental health has become dire 😞
(tw ed and suicide ideation I hope this is ok to post here I don’t want to trigger anyone)
But the only way I’ve been coping is by restricting my food and exercising, i feel completely hopeless and alone, I spend significant part of my day shaking in tears, and it’s not that I want to die because I don’t want to hurt my family but the thought of everything happening is too much for me to bare :( I’m not anywhere near underweight so no one would be interested in helping me and it’s the only thing I have at the moment so I don’t want to give it up either.
I’ve had suicide attempts in the past at age 14 and 19 and I’m now 26, I used to SH as a teenager but I don’t anymore and I don’t know what to do?
it feels so overwhelming and consuming and it doesn’t seem much worth a life to live in this state. I’ve had CBT DBT, private therapy, I’ve tried mindfulness etc but I’m currently on the autism/adhd pathway and none of it works, none of it helps. I’m on medication that used to take the edge off, but with everything happening I just can’t find any relief anywhere, my hearts always thumping, my memory is shocking.
I’m so fed up with feeling this way, I just wish I could be normal, people (not here, in general population and government) seem to not believe me and think I’m just doing it for the sake of it to stay at home? That I’m exaggerating? That I’d be fine once I was in the workforce? No, every day is a living hell and has been since I was a teenager. there’s no point going anywhere other than here for support because there isn’t anything :(
Again I hope this is ok to post here, I’ve found it to be really supportive and it’s one of the only places I feel able to be truthful.
I hope no one here feels similar to me but if they do, I’m sending love your way ❤️
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thank you both ❤️
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You are not alone, I feel exactly the same and have a similar history to you. There seems little understanding of mental illness amongst those in charge of the country. We will survive whatever they throw at us together
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I’m sorry you feel this way too it’s awful - seems like we’ve gone back decades in awareness of mental health
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Because apparently our "common" mental health conditions are mild therefore manageable with targeted support from those JCP experts 😓
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It really is shocking - especially as there is literally no support, I don’t think the job centre staff would want to deal with people in mental health crises either. I just hope we’ll all be okay
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In DWP speak, there are common and serious mental health conditions 😓
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There really isn’t - I suffer from ‘mild’ mental health issues all the time but they can easily tip to severe such as psychosis and I get physical tics when stressed, I never thought we would reach a point where the Tories were ‘better’ on mental health than labour :(
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Totally understand only takes one thing to take you down keep close contact with your doctor I think we will all be calling them this week it's so overwhelming the lot of it is inhumane and dismgration against MH I'm also well I put my form back for adhd test haven't confirmed I'm on list and no one does understand and if they don't god there lucky I've had loads of therapy meds that don't work either I'm sending you much love your are not on your own keep reaching out keep speaking We didn't wish for this horrid disability sounds like exercising and food is because we feel lost and this is the only thing we can control mines spending spending trying to fil that void I prey that we will be OK big hugs be kind to yourself don't let rent a place in our minds easier said than done I know
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Thank you so much - I’m sure doctors will be overwhelmed this week - I managed to email my local MP yesterday aswell so I’ve done all I can.
Sending you so much love we can all get through this together there’s strength in numbers ❤️❤️0 -
Oh OK what did you say in email if not being nosey I tend to get angry then worry after
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I feel very very similar to the comments made. Why are we being put through this torment, being made the scapegoats when we obviously need this help & support.
I am neglecting myself. Eating little, hygiene standards practically none existent, self harming is becoming more prevalent.
I feel there will be more blood on the Government's hands. We all do our best to manage/cope, but just keep getting kicked in the face. It's deplorable.
I am so low, so sad, so desperate. Feel very much alone. I ask to be taken regularly each day. At least then these horrendous feelings will be gone. Noone will miss me.
You lot being here are helping me.
I find weekends extremely difficult.
I send my love and best wishes.
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Afternoon vikki, not yet 😅 just lots and lots of tea
DWP now considers several mental health conditions to be 'common' - autism, ADHD, bi-polar etc
Active psychosis is classed as 'serious' - there are others
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I'm surprised bi polar seen as not life altering so what is classed seriously can't spell it erm scitzofrenic god my spelling bpd any others
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Your definitely not alone last year had the same with sunak everything Your saying I had took my daughter crying and my dad to pull myself out was fkijh hard I just didn't want to open my eyes thinking my daughters 29 she won't need me as much thinking who would take my dogs it's torturous pls everyday do something little maybe make sure you drink some water eat a little bit of food we need to be strong to fight these fkers !! Reach out to your doctor get on list for therapy as your sh with is very dangerous tell your doctor everything and ask for therapy or to talk to someone at community mental health don't put yourself so low you can't get up fight dig so deep you done it before I'm sure you can do again they want this prepare yourself your are not alone we are all here beside each other let us know how you are at all times doesn't matter how many times a day this forum has helped me so so much I don't know where I'd be big hugs so plan today drink water or tea or any fluids make slice of toast when mind and body weak it's horrendous big hugs
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Sorry to hear that vikki I been sitting here thinking right do hoovering hope your well today x
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Oh I'm obsessed with hoovers !! Duvet covers I got so many hoovers over the years shows you how exciting my life is !
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I have to be honest. I am petrified for any future I may have. Suicidal thoughts ( which are with me everyday) are moving up the list of my daily thoughts. I can feel them moving back up to top spot.
Is this what the Government wants?? To get rid of those struggling with mental and physical health challenges
I see no other way out for myself. I have very little fight left in me.
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I totally understand the fear the pressure it saddens me because I know exactly what your saying and its hard when you feel so low to see anyway out it really is and it doesn’t matter what anyone says thier not dealing with your brain your fears the trauma of being in the moment every minute if the day the fear when I have it is someone actually has a G!! to my head like it's actually happening this minute it drives you insane your hightened to everything but to tired worn down we are living in terror so your body is reacting your brain is reacting there is always hope we all cling onto to something and we really are stronger than we think you are very valuable you might deny this but you are we are all someone and we all mean something to someone there's always hope life goes in ever decreasing circles I've kept my life so tight and for me that helped me but the reality is and I tell myself this I have choice but to face this and it might not be as bad as I thought it's the ruminating it's already told us what will happen but that's our minds it's not happened and you might say but it will that we have to wait and see and trust me it's unbearable pls pls rest your mind and body do you have kids family if you don't you have us much love
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ElizaRose, we know these mental health conditions are neither mild nor common. Just a myth the DWP is now using to get the general public onside. It's inevitable that physical injury and disability would also affect mental health.
I'm appalled to hear of the 'work coach' ringing your son in hospital 😣
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Thanks for your kind words. I have no kids, family or support. You lovely people are helping me greatly.
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