Overwhelmed daily alone

@Catherine21 yes the emptiness is the one & missing him, thought i just heard him run upstairs stuff like that happens everyday yes same here had around dogs in my life since you & all different which makes yer have to grieve Syd before another comes along and putting yerself through it all again but once had them in house yer can't not.. mornings are terrible when wake & think it ain't happened but don't force anything day to day, worried about elderlies as Syd got them out i fear worst for them now..

@tomwalker i'm so sorry to hear about your situation i try to send strength to you in these times.. i get the despair thing as i have with my elderly family too looking after and seeing them decline it takes a massive toll on the depression & anxiety, then Syd it's often too much all at once he was my best friend, unconditional love.. I run & read, use pc but when overwhelmed with thoughts & memories yer don't feel social & yet feel angry in ways that they seem ok, as is grief..

Thankyou that means a lot when you think you've cried all yer tears & then more come along especially in mornings when wake maybe have had dreams & so spaced out and then yer remember. It breaks my heart to wonder what they were thinking at the time, when he was ill & just standing looking at me as if to say 'why am i feeling this way daddy' i'll never forget that it was horrible. Yes the love we share with them reflects in the grief we suffer, it comes in waves. Thanks for your sendings, just having a weep at that thought of him looking at me not feeling well my poor little boy.😪

I'm having a bad day, certain situations remind of certain things like when family members go to shop across rd he used to stand in window waiting for them to come back then when he saw them he'd bark & run to the door.. Things like that really upset yer, his white hairs everywhere..

Thankyou Catherine, it's a had a big impact on family, the elderlies because of what it makes them do.. All the best hoping you ok.. Dark nights are **** i go to bed early then the waking up & it all comes back

Hi i've had a bad few days being quite lonesome, all routine has stopped, its same with my mum she has no get up & go positivity, very negative attitude always comparing herself to people in worse conditions.. even though pained, i just see after Syd died them following like the wheels falling off, its just not the same.. I kept his fave toy, why do we do that to upset ourselves.. Yes our families sometimes i think they pull you down from how you are when close to them as we become them & not ourselves. Life when smooth is ok just when bad stuff happens can't cope.. My dr gave me some diazepam but don't take at night just codeine pills. Hope your ok tonight

Hi yes it is horrible, i'm far more devastated about Syd than any other human family members that have died over the years, he was my best mate i'm heartbroken. I help out with elderly parents who loved him too & they took him out regularly for their own physical & mental health but all that has gone now.. Bit overwhelming at the moment is life & can't see it getting better.. Thanks

Thanks Catherine, yes it's pretty crappy now they sat on own in house with no distraction, Syd would be in & out the living room, in the garden etc or out for a quick walk before bed.. It's hard to get used to it all. Yes when no siblings it's hard as all responsibility on ourselves but it's not always bad as i don't get on with rest of family so in ways can be better off on own.. I like to go to bed but dreams are terrible & i hate mornings, they can be terrible if anxious & depressive moods.