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  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing

    My fifi has cancer she's nearly 15 I choose not to operate on her the thing is we will never know one minute thier playing with the ball next can be gone happened to my dog purds she was fine but was gone within 24hrs that's trauma what you are going through Syd was happy he was with you to the end the grief is horrific absolutely pls try to think you loved and still love with all your soul you gave him so much love this shows be proud you was a good daddy to him really proud my fifi was acting strange last night I was besides myself God if we could only have them forever

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing

    Sorry to hear this Rosie it's so upsetting I love animals more than people

  • Rachel_Scope
    Rachel_Scope Posts: 2,463 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Aww thanks @Catherine21. Animals are amazing and give us their unconditional love 😊

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing
  • Tumilty
    Tumilty Online Community Member Posts: 466 Empowering

    Hi it's terrible, yer think yer getting used to being without him but the memories, loss & his lack of presence that bonded the house together is no more. Yes time i know but i sleep with his best toy i still see his hairs on the floor, constant reminders that part of doesn't want to see but another part of me does. I have loads of pics & vids on my phone that i'd cry so much & make myself very upset if i saw. I saw my Dr she gave me some valium, she's nice but not a miracle worker. On top of this my mum n dad being ill, especially mum & her negative attitude it is an overwhelming time

    @Catherine21 thinking of you & Fifi your words are so true, i sure love the unconditional love of a furry family member in the family more than humans as they can be evil people whereas your dogs aren't, it breaks my heart. Yes he was with me & it makes me cry recalling it,the poor boy's little head dropped in my arms 😥, here i go welling up again.. Thinking of you and Fifi, yes i know that feeling. Big hugs. 🙏

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing

    I couldn't imagine that well I can id be totally heartbroken too my heart really feels for you because I know I'd be absolutely broken one day you will be able to look at pictures but I think that will be along long time and your be glad you took so many pictures but now it's to raw I understand when you say Syd bonded the family I didn't speak to my dad for years and we slowly started to talk and I got fifi and he would come every week and we got closer because of fifi my wishes are you rest your body and mind very important if you sleep for hours sleep for hours don't have an expectations to do anything you are grieving take day by day we are always here if you want to talk there's loads of animal lovers on here who really understand your pain 😢

  • Tumilty
    Tumilty Online Community Member Posts: 466 Empowering

    Thankyou Catherine, i can't look at pictures though i can see them in my mind, i go to sleep with his toy & maybe that's prolonging things but it's how i am, some are hard & just carry on but i can't, i'm glad Fifi helped bond you with your dad they so bring people together. Yes i don't care about feeling tired & anti-social, i always been like that anyway but i force myself to do things whereas time ago i wouldn't but yer have to. Sending thoughts to you & Fifi, hope she's having a better night & you too.. 🙏

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing
  • Tumilty
    Tumilty Online Community Member Posts: 466 Empowering

    mornings & dreams are terrible waking up to a different place

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing

    It's a place no one wants to be fifi 15 February how do you cope I can't imagine a world without her and its coming soon how do we prepare for the pain we never can we learn to live with it a different place is that ache in your heart I resuced purdy a friends mum passed and purds was being neglected I took her had no money but I did I had her seven years ♥️ I never dealt with the pain I went into avoidance mode and two years after it hit me so so painful but I still believe where animals are involved its better to love and lose than never love at all will do in a million heartbeats I will cry a lifetime for fifi that's facts but we should be so so so proud that we are the perfect mummy and daddy and loved with all our hearts be proud of yourself as painful as it is have comfort from knowing you loved him so

  • Tumilty
    Tumilty Online Community Member Posts: 466 Empowering

    It is, the thoughts are still raw and seeing photos on my phone accidentally don't make it any better but why would i not want to see pics of the boy i loved, that's grief.. mornings are terrible the feeling of rescuing them & having them is so far better than not having them at all but with Syd i loved him so much he was my dog that i rescued & my heart at the moment cannot do that again for health & other reasons as it's changed the dynamic here with my parents, nothing is the same & can only see it going downhill from here…. Yes you'll cry buckets with Fifi, is the price we pay, we all do a good job giving them a good life. The memories of that night when he was so worn out but trying keeps entering my mind & i cry, was a horrible night..

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 8,552 Championing

    That is proper trauma what you have gone through and will take along time to get over my heart feels for you I think the only way you can live life at this moment is day by day I do understand the overwhelming feeling of pure sadness and despair I really do I hope you get moments of rest

  • Tumilty
    Tumilty Online Community Member Posts: 466 Empowering

    Thank you Catherine, it's day to day & even hour to hour, everything has changed… Yes it was a horrible night, my best friend 😭