Overwhelmed daily alone

Thankyou Catherine, i can't look at pictures though i can see them in my mind, i go to sleep with his toy & maybe that's prolonging things but it's how i am, some are hard & just carry on but i can't, i'm glad Fifi helped bond you with your dad they so bring people together. Yes i don't care about feeling tired & anti-social, i always been like that anyway but i force myself to do things whereas time ago i wouldn't but yer have to. Sending thoughts to you & Fifi, hope she's having a better night & you too.. 🙏

It is, the thoughts are still raw and seeing photos on my phone accidentally don't make it any better but why would i not want to see pics of the boy i loved, that's grief.. mornings are terrible the feeling of rescuing them & having them is so far better than not having them at all but with Syd i loved him so much he was my dog that i rescued & my heart at the moment cannot do that again for health & other reasons as it's changed the dynamic here with my parents, nothing is the same & can only see it going downhill from here…. Yes you'll cry buckets with Fifi, is the price we pay, we all do a good job giving them a good life. The memories of that night when he was so worn out but trying keeps entering my mind & i cry, was a horrible night..