Mental health

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  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Sorry the post was so long @Catherine21 .

    Truly sorry

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Just feeling like a total loser at the moment thats all .

    Sincerely sorry about that .

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    I have actually read that emotional trauma can cause a person to apologise alot .

    Thats me

    I apologise alot

    And emotional trauma has played a part in my life .

    Thats why i am like i am i think

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    I apologise wholeheartedly for my rant .

    Hope i can be forgiven .

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Please take care of yourselves everyone .

    Best wishes always .

  • Mary_Scope
    Mary_Scope Posts: 3,042 Scope Online Community Children and Family Specialists

    Hi @Strawberry1

    Sorry to hear how you are feeling and that things are no better with your friend.

    There is no need to apologise for your rant. We all need to have a space where we feel safe and comfortable to vent how we are feeling.

    We're going to send your an email soon, please keep an eye out for it

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Thank You @Mary_Scope

    I called Samaritans and Im glad I did

    Thank you very much

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Ive got to organise some things @Mary_Scope , i am going to hospital on Friday to have a pacemaker fitted .

    Need to get prepared

    Tomorrow is going to be busy too .

    Thank u for allowing me the space to vent

    I am very grateful

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 4,732 Championing

    Hey Strawberry ๐Ÿ“ I'm sorry you're feeling so rubbish atm. I hope your friend can forgive you in time. If you said something you regret then that makes you human. You're not well and we can all snap when we're in pain.

    The last time I saw you on here you were in hospital following a heart attack ๐Ÿ˜ฎ I hope your pacemaker surgery on Friday is comfortable and that it gives you a new lease of life.

    In the meantime, rant away - it's your thread ๐Ÿ˜„

  • Nightcity
    Nightcity Online Community Member Posts: 178 Empowering

    Good luck Friday @Strawberry1 hope you get a fresh start.

    My mum may end up with one also they are trying heart ablation first in mid December to try get rid of the atrial fibrillation. A cardiac arrest and a heart attack behind us already because of AF I know how absolutely frightening it all is, lots of love and best wishes to you

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    @Nightcity and @WhatThe , just got a visitor at the moment .

    I will message back as soon as I can .

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Thank you in advance @WhatThe and @Nightcity

  • Jane315STARX
    Jane315STARX Online Community Member Posts: 885 Pioneering

    Hi @Strawberry1 im just catching up with all that's going on.Hope your visit went well.sending you best wishes x

  • WhatThe
    WhatThe Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 4,732 Championing

    In your own time Strawberry. You are always so considerate. Just take it easy ๐Ÿค—

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Thank you so much @Jane315STARX

    Hope you are ok

    Please take care of yourself

    Best wishes always

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Hi @WhatThe , sorry my reply is late

    My visitor has just left .

    Thank you for your kindness .

    Not sure what will happen with the friendship thats gone wrong

    I take full responsability for maybe speaking out of term with the friend I had .

    Thank you for your kind wishes and wishing me luck for Friday.

    Im very grateful

    Hoping u r ok

    Please take care of yourself

    Best wishes always

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    @Nightcity , thank you for your kindness i really appreciate it .

    Sorry to hear your mum is having a tough time .

    I hope everything goes ok for your mum .

    Thinking of you both

    Sending lots of empathy and compassion your way .

    Thank u again

    Please take care

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    As for the ex friend situation

    Whats happened has happened

    I cant turn the clock back

    My mental health is very complex

    Been diagnosed with Adhd and I am still awaiting an Autism assessment .

    Both of these are complex things .

    Since i last posted my home life hasnt really improved so im facing many battles .

    No excuse I know and im not seeking pity

    I think im just tryin to explain things the best way i can .

    If we cant be friends anymore then thats ok.

    I never meant to ruin things but life happens doesnt it .

    I wish the ex friend all the best and hope things go ok for them going forwards .

    Maybe sticking around on the forum is a good way to help me heal.

    I rang Samaritans this afternoon and Im glad I did .

    It was just what i needed .

    Sorry my post is so long but at least i am managing to post without tears running down my face .

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,197 Championing

    Thank you all for your kindness , support and time

    Forever grateful

    Look after yourselves

    Be kind to yourselves too

    Cant thank you enough

    Thank u never seems enough

    But Forever grateful

    Sending lots of peace and love all around

  • Jane315STARX
    Jane315STARX Online Community Member Posts: 885 Pioneering

    It definitely sounds like you are feeling a little more positive at the moment which is marvellous X