How is your day going?

Sandy_123

Yes although it's meant to be warm again next week

Albus_Scope

I may hold off from putting my fan in the attic again, just to be on the safe side. 😆

Teigr

Yes @Sandy_123 it's supposed to be a lot warmer next week.

Hopefully I'll have time to give the garden a proper tidy up before the weather takes a real turn for the worse.

Sandy_123

Yes same here @Teigr

My rugs are coming today was meant to be Monday just hope the size is ok as I'm hopeless at measuring

Marydoll5

Hi everyone

I've had a horrific few days due to missing taking antidepressants. I'm on the maximum dose so it has been rough.

I've been so absent minded and it was the last thing I needed. I've been crippled with anxiety, felt constantly nauseous and had really bad upset tummy. Brain zaps have stopped at least as this is my 2nnd day back on them.

I couldn't write coherently but read your posts which was some way of feeling I had friends. This will sound so selfish but we are going on holiday for 2 weeks on Monday to Spain and I am dreading it as I'm back to can't eat, sleep or be around people.

My partner is trying to jolly me along which isn't helping. He's driving due to necessity as I can't. He's doing well and I am falling apart and feel I can't do life. I want to rest and try to recover.

Why does life have to be so hard? I'm fed up of my mind being up then down. I'm not making sense but needed to talk to you all. Any help or suggestions send them my way

Albus_Scope

Oh @Marydoll5 I'm so sorry to hear that. I've been there myself, so I know how rough things can get. But I'm glad the community was able to give you a bit of light, even if you couldn't say anything. ❤️

That doesn't sound selfish at all, that sounds like someone who's worried, which is totally understandable, so go easy on yourself. Though I know if you have the black dog visiting, that isn't an easy thing to do.
It sounds like a silly thing, but have you tried journaling before? I find if I'm in one of those "I'm useless" moments, it can be nice to look back at things I've accomplished. Even if that accomplishment is "I got out of bed today" it's still a victory!

Hopefully things will level out after a couple of days back on the meds. We're all here for chats and support if you need us. 😊

Marydoll5

@Albus_Scope thanks for listening. I will start to journal as I recently had to write down when I woke up from bad dreams that had me kicking in my sleep and shouting for help.

I thought it was all about my ex but it turned out to be also when I was severely bullied in work years ago. The therapist thinks it's ptsd and my brain trying to make sense of it in the nightmares.

The work ones don't happen now since she talked me through the meaning of the bad dream.

That type of journaling helped so I'll try anything. Try and look at positives and not all negatives about myself.

Right now everything is in black and white and there's no colour. I hate this hopeless dread of life

Marydoll5

Sometimes I think there's been so much trauma in my life and its damaged me. I can't take any more

Albus_Scope

No problem @Marydoll5 we all care and are here to listen when you feel up to talking. ❤️
Dealing with PTSD when it's not yet diagnosed can be really scary, especially the night terrors, I know first hand, but the good news is it's treatable. Ask your therapist about EMDR therapy, that was a total game changer for me and my PTSD.

I've popped you a little email, so please be on the look out for it. I also hope some colour returns soon. 😊

Marydoll5

@Albus_Scope I got the email thanks.

I will try and fight these feelings and hope my system settles soon so I can start living a happier life.

Sandy_123

@Marydoll5 so sorry you've been struggling lately. I'm pleased you were Able to pop on and tell us. I really hope you improve soon. Going on holiday might help as it's a change of scenery. Medication can knock us about at times.

I've been sat in the garden it's really warm and nice

Marydoll5

@Sandy_123 I hope you are right. Sun always helps. I'm shocked at how well I was doing to going to the opposite end.

I have overcome this before and will again but I'm exhausted right now. It's not easy when I can't explain why it happened. I wish there was a magic wand that would rest my brain.

Sandy_123

You are right about getting stronger Mary, I've seen you flourish since your first post on here. I'm sure you will again. Lots of support here for you

Marydoll5

@Sandy_123 I don't recognise that person sadly, I know I was happy and I hope in time I'll get back to that.

I really appreciate the support from you all. I'm not easy to put up with !

Katiedimelow20

hey, is not been a good day for me today .

Albus_Scope

I'm really hoping things will feel better for you soon @Marydoll5 😊

Oh no @Katiedimelow20 what's up? Anything we can help with?

Katiedimelow20

@Albus_Scope my mum expect me to happy on this day come to watch football and i don't like it . i don't like loud noise . did get overwhelm to . i did try express my emotion to my mum but didn't seem to her me . did scracth and hurt me . did shove me at the house . i had show my emotion like a sims but still mum did kind reacted it then . then got accuse of being angry and bored . i don't think my mum doesn't like how i express my emotion at all .

Albus_Scope

That must be super tough for you @Katiedimelow20 I'm sorry to hear your mum doesn't like how you're expressing your emotions.

Sandy_123

we are all here for you @Marydoll5

Been a lovely day here today

Teigr

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a tough time of it lately @Marydoll5 .