How is your day going?

Robin0480

@Grumpy1314

Took Amitriptyline at 8pm absolutely shattered or going to turn in early tonight hope you enjoyed your films/programme s good night chat soon 😴

Grumpy1314

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1014942#Comment_1014942

Night Robin,

been quiet to say the least, working slowly through a few programs. Not in a good place again. Just showing no form of control of my finances the last 3 days by eating takeaways 🤬🤬🤬 totally ashamed of myself, going to just skip my antidepressants again tonight and shut down. Just fed up of not being able to control myself around take aways when I’ve got food in the kitchen. Think I could do with talking to my gp about it.

Grumpy1314

I’m sorry to share this and feel so ashamed 😔 I’ve been on a self destruct course over recent months. Ordering many take aways with many coming in at £30 🤢 I am such a fool, an idiot, I honestly hate how I look, don’t want to be seen in public, I’ll always eat quickly, often feeling bloated and uncomfortable after eating. I just have no impulse control, I’ll often go for the quicker option of ordering something rather than cooking, I feel dirty, my weight is fluctuating all over the place and I want to lose another 3 stone so I’m more comfortable and fit better into my clothes. I’ve had six take aways since Monday, coming to a total of £162.09 🥲🥲 just wish I didn’t have a debit card, Apple Pay and access to my finances!! I’m just knowingly eating food that I know will set off my Acid or Bile Reflux that affects my breathing, especially if I lay down!! So tonight I’m going to stay awake all night, not take my antidepressants and will probably do the same tomorrow to. In just going to go quietly into the shadows! I honestly most days feel guilty being alive! I’m going to seek help from my GP about having an eating disorder. I’m going to just keep myself safe, go quiet and hide for the time being.

Katiedimelow20

Hey I'm been okay today and yet again my mum annoyed me once again. My mum always does anyoied. I been typing my symptoms .is has been really difficult so far.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1014974#Comment_1014974

I have no impulse control with spending and I found a way that has really stopped me spending so much I don't have my banking app on my phone!! I don't know how much is in their you order food for comfort mines face creams it's that feeling if I buy this and it works imagine how amazing that would be maybe yours is to push the feelings down of real life emotions it's like I uses to drink and I'd try so hard not to then that voice that say oh don't worry about it just get it who cares !! And it's because at that moment in time we don't care takes few minutes to order it is self harm I used to have clearpay klarna you have to take the tools that help you do this away or put limits on them you have to really dig deep and start being aware of what triggers you to order food and also sit with the uncomfortable feelings of wanting to order and not doing so it's hard really hard but it can be done remember we are so used to doing what we want even though we know it will harm us financially and emotionally try to put limits say I will have a take away at weekends for a threat and in the week none the only person we hurt is ourselves trust me I know that self loafing feeling try with small steps you got this 👍

Sandy_123

Morning everyone another nice sunny day ahead

luvpink

Morning all from beautiful sunny Cornwall.

I'm heading out for a day trip and picnic lunch dreckley as we say.

Albus_Scope

Morning you lovely lot! Here's to another sunny day!

Hope you have a lovely day @luvpink that sounds fab!

Hope you're doing ok today @Sandy_123 and @Catherine21 ?

Albus_Scope

I totally understand the lack of impulse control @Grumpy1314 it can be really soul destroying. But you're recognising it which is a great start.

Though I would urge you to please take your antidepressants every day as the doc requests, as if you're only taking them occasionally, all you'll really be getting are the side effects.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1015094#Comment_1015094

Have to go to hospital for scan of my jaw keep getting tingling hands and lips she said its not my tooth oh the joys

Amberpearl

Good morning everyone

Sun is out 11 degrees

Bettwr than yesterday

Sandy_123

yeah good @albus_scope loving the weather, hope your good

Albus_Scope

All good here thanks @Sandy_123 almost time for a week off to do lots of gardening. 😁

Hopefully everything's ok @Catherine21 !

Teigr

Good just about morning all.

Amberpearl

It's 12 degrees now sunny

Bubbles70

It's 16 degrees with wall to wall sunshine. 😊

Lovely walk out as hearing the lawnmowers and even some birds singing on this beautiful Spring afternoon.

I went to the local shop to stock up on a few magazines to take with me tomorrow to the hospital. I will be staying with a local friend while she is having her cataract removed.

Enjoy your afternoon best you can everyone.

Teigr

Very warm here too,I should get stuck into weeding the drive.

My life is a never ending whirl of excitement.

Santosha12

Been out in the garden with dogs can't go out now as scaffolders working. Dogs are trying to watch Escape to the Country in between the racket 🤣 . Having a drink of Ribena.

Katiedimelow20

hey, is has be a bit better day but didn't do much . went out to gaming group and playing bit on Splatoon 3 . as listing boosts on my opera air brewers to how works for me .

Amberpearl

I ckeahed and washed my bread bin as mice got in and ate my bread and chocolate even though lid was shut

I threw everything out

And got new loaf and put it in fridge

I. Bleached worktop s and out tiles all around edges of worktop

Not sure if that will work. Hope so

It's disgusting and giving me the creeps