Hi, my name is GillR3!

GillR3

I'm new here and don't quite know what to say I have quite a long boring sad story but to give you a better idea about who I am I will try to keep it brief I'm a medically retired orthopedic nurse which I did for sixteen years I have clinical depression and anxiety which has been a slippery combination to deal with I self medicated with alcohol (sorry) I now have 6.5 years of recovery and very proud I spent a month in psychiatric care to sort myself out my family has disowned me and in the process have taken my precious boys to live with them following my discharge from psychiatric care my dad sadly died suddenly and I was left to grieve alone as you can imagine I didn't do very well my dad was my running partner we ran miles together, to lose that was too much in the weeks to come I had to find a way to be with my dad in the process I fractured my skull and had a near fatal bleed on my brain defying the odds I survived yet a year later epilepsy complicated everything I had a seizure and another putting me in a coma once again I was ventilated but the paralysis didn't recover itself leaving my dominant left side paralyzed I now live alone without family support but only 5 minutes away from each other my youngest sons dad is my biggest support we have recently returned from ten days in Mallorca following my dad's funeral which I was told I could attend but not in the black car and not to the wakes I continued to keep in touch with my dad's brother who I didn't really know growing up it was only my mums side of the family that I was close too as it happens I have just booked to spend Christmas with my aunt uncle and my cousin in Lanzarote my youngest son's dad will be coming with me too, to say I'm looking forward to it would be an understatement so the moral of this story would be to reach out before things escalate, I didn't, if the worst happens don't give up I was told I would never walk again in my polite voice i told the doctors to **** off and to come back with good news my heckles rose and I became obsessed with learning to walk so I went to neuro rehab and wonderfully enough I walked out from there I recently got bad news that my homonomous hemianopia has made no progress and I am now registered partially sighted if I've written anything wrong or offended anyone it certainly wasn't intentional and I'm sorry I would be interested in anyone suffering as I did please don't be alone there's a better place waiting out there which can be found xxx

Sandy_123

Ho @GillR3 welcome to the forum, sounds like you have been through a lot, condolences for your dad.

Lots of us to natter to here especially if your feeling lonely.

It's good to have something to look forward to especially a nice holiday

Bluebell21

Hi @GillR3 Welcome to the Community from me to. I hope you enjoy your time on the forum. Any questions just ask.

You have been through a very difficult time. Thank you for sharing you story to encourage others to reach out for help. I hope you enjoy your holiday and have a lovely Christmas when it comes around.

You might like to look in the Coffee Lounge under Categories for chats.

Take care.