Burden

Agnia

im a burden for family , and im not writing here everything i would like to write and how i was perceived and what was said to me

Agnia

i felt very lonely many times , very lonely

Bluebell21

Hi @Agnia I am so sorry you feel a burden to your family. Are you able to talk to them about how you feel?

I know you have been worrying about the budget and not sleeping well. Please do not think of yourself as a burden.

You are a lovely person and help other members on the forum when you can.

Please take care of yourself.

Agnia

Hi Nightcity ,

Thank you so much for your support and your kind words

Please take care

Hi Bluebell ,

Thank you so much for your support and your kind words, yes i was talking to them about it and i remember what was said to me and i was calling Samaritans 3 times a day

Please take care

Kind regards to everyone on this forum

Jimm_Alumni

Hey @Agnia, I want to echo what Bluebell and Nightcity have said, that you are not a burden. I also know the feeling, it can be a difficult one to deal with, but the community is here for support.

It can be hard with family, our expectation is that they are supposed to be our closest support, but that sadly is not always the case. Most people don't get to choose their family either, but you do get to choose your friends. I'm glad you chose the community.

Do take care, and do keep in touch!

Agnia

Hi Jimm Scope ,

Thank you so much for your kind words and your support

Please take care

Kind regards

Agnia

Hi Vikki,

Thank you so much for your support and your kind words regarding my person, unfortunately im feeling like a burden and is caused by many factors, maybe if i had received the help i asked for on time my situation and health would be on a different state than it is now , my current health condition is also largely due to my professional work the stress associated with it and the responsibility i had , im very worried about my benefits they be taken away from me and what what the government will decide

Please take care

Kind regards to you

Agnia

Thank you so much Vikki ♥️🌷

Agnia

i just would like to add please that yesterday i had a really terrible day and i felt bad , All Souls Day is approaching and i won’t light a candle on my grandparents grave in Poland , i won’t light a candles there for another year and it’s extremely hard for me

Bluebell21

Hi @Agnia Could you light a candle in your flat for your grandparents. You will still be remembering them. Take care.

Agnia

Hi Bluebell,

Thank you so much for your support it means a lot to me , yes i can do it here in my flat but i miss Poland very much and it’s eating me up inside , i asked the doctor to increase the dose but it still won’t get rid of this feeling and it doesn’t make me recover

Please take care

Kind regards to you ♥️

Agnia

Hi ,

i know that some things are said under the influence of emotions but words were said to me that should never have been said, i have never ever asked for help before in my entire life in England and when i got sick and knew i couldn’t cope on my own i begged for the help , and i really from my heart wanted to improve our relationship but my person when i got sick was only a problem for them , telling me that if i feel lonely i should buy a cat , telling me that Poland is long and wide and that no one will let me in when i arrive and other really brutal things, i was watching movies at night and it saved my life , i called Samaritans so often that after some time when i wanted to call them i heard a recorded message telling me to contact their office, i was in hell , i was just a problem for them , i heard that im pretending that im unwell and i should go to work , i ran vat company and i did fight for people to have jobs and i heard from family that i should pull myself together and go to work and other things

Kind regards

Bluebell21

Hi @Agnia I am so sorry things have been so difficult for you. It is very disappointing when people let us down. Any time you want to talk we are here for you. Take care of yourself.

Agnia

Hi Bluebell

Thank you very much for your support

Please take care

Agnia

Hi eeL

Thank you so much really for sharing your thoughts, your support and im really truly sorry for what happened to you, you are a truly lovely and warm person

Please take care

Jimm_Alumni

You did not deserve to have any of those things said to you @Agnia, you are clearly a caring and wonderful person. You've interacted with us on the community for a while and it's clear how caring and nice you are.

Agnia

Hi Jimm Scope

Thank you so much for your kind words about me

Please take care

Kind regards

durhamjaide2001

hi @agnia I just wanted to let you know that you are definitely not a burden

Agnia

Hi durhamjaide,

Thank you so much for writing to me and for these words

Please take care

Kind regards

durhamjaide2001

your so welcome it's my pleasure

Agnia

Thank you very much again.