Emotions after ASD assessment

Zipz
Zipz Online Community Member Posts: 1,636 Empowering
edited February 4 in Autism and neurodiversity

Hello All,

Following two telephone discussions with a clinical psychologist, I had my first face to face evaluation towards (or not) a diagnosis of ASD. I went as my awful self. I didn't struggle to mask. The experience was very positive and I came home happy, although physically exhausted and in a lot of pain. Today, I feel mentally burned out and can't stop crying. Is this "normal" or just the "me" I hate being?

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  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 8,678 Championing

    Hi @Zipz You will have been very stressed before your face to face evaluation. It went well and you were happy with the result.

    Today you are feeling drained from the whole experience which can make you emotional.

    I do not think it is the "me" you hate being.

    You did really well going for the face to face do not be so hard on yourself.

    Take care.

  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 1,093 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Hi @Zipz that's a big thing to prepare for, and to go through so you're bound to be feeling a lot of emotions which does tend to take it's toll physically too. I know it's not the same but when I have my therapy sessions for my complex trauma, it really takes it's toll on me (tears and self blame) and often takes day's until I feel back to myself. Please don't be too hard on yourself and remember to be kind to yourself. 💛

  • Zipz
    Zipz Online Community Member Posts: 1,636 Empowering

    Thank you @Bluebell21 and @Holly_Scope for you kind and encouraging words.

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 8,678 Championing

    Good morning @Zipz I hope you are feeling a bit better today. Just think how well you did by going at all.

    Take care.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,856 Championing

    I think i will be same i thought they was going to take me off waiting list but all ok how long did you wait for assessment it really is a big deal to relize you couldnt help some parts of your personality for me personally if i am i will feel angry that no one understood me and i suffered wondering which i already do what would my life been like if i did get diagnosed earlier its a really big deal you will need time to absorb for years we beat ourselves up even devolp other illnesses through trauma of undiagnosed adhd autisum you have answers now be kind to yourself its certainly a journey

  • Zipz
    Zipz Online Community Member Posts: 1,636 Empowering
    edited February 6

    @Catherine21 Hi. It matters a lot to me to get a diagnosis. Assuming the results confirm ASD it makes sense of my life. I'm not doing this for benefits. My main disability is physical. It's to do with self-acceptance and an understanding of my general "weirdness" since early childhood. I expect to get a result by April. If it's positive I'm having a wee celebration 🍾

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 3,856 Championing

    I totally understand totally ive got a wait 3 to 4 years ive been reading up about adhd makes so much sense i hope you get peace of mind you deserve its a rollercoaster when you know you have many traits of adhd

  • Zipz
    Zipz Online Community Member Posts: 1,636 Empowering

    Hi @Catherine21 My decision to get assessed was quite sudden, following a crisis. I was aware of waiting times and knew I couldn't afford to wait. I therefore often to go privately. I don't think I could cope with years of waiting at this stage of my life.