Please could you delete my last post.

Agnia

Hi @Mary_Scope , Please could you delete my last topic that i wrote tonight and tried to post it , but it didn’t appear because my posts have to be approved, yes ?

Thank you .

Agnia

Please could you delete my last post regarding work ? Thank you.

Holly_Scope

Hi @Agnia, not a problem at all. I'll get that done now.

Agnia

Hi @Holly_Scope , Please IF you could kindly explain to me why my yesterday topic was paused and I couldn’t publish it which led me to question my own thoughts my own credibility my faith in my own abilities and my self confidence and my self esteem which was also lowered here and led me to ask about deleting my post , and also what i felt completely alone and my post and my thoughts were suspended on the forum that after 6 pm i couldn’t write anything on the forum and how long it took place and what bad consequences it had for my mental health.

Thank you .

Holly_Scope

Hi @Agnia I'm really sorry about that. I sent you a message about this earlier today to explain in more detail what happened. Unfortunately sometimes posts automatically fall into our spam queue which happened in the case of your post. I have resolved this, and put something in place to ensure it doesn't happen again. It shouldn't have effected your ability to post anything else.

I hope you're feeling a bit better today.

Best wishes,

Holly

Agnia

im really sorry to be honest I was considering to delete my account here and i wouldn’t wish this to anyone to be left alone how i was and not be able to express myself completely on my own and how long it took place that Scope decided to hold my post and also about the problem that i raised in my emails to Scope about the matter on the form and how it affected me how much lowered my self confidence self esteem

Holly_Scope

Bless you @Agnia, I'm really sorry. I'm going to pop you an email shortly - please keep an eye out for it.

Best wishes,

Agnia

i don’t wish anyone to have a parent who gave them such epithets and such words as i heard about myself and couldnt write anything on the Scope forum then and when i called the Samaritans i couldn’t talk to them because a certain numbers of calls were made from my mobile phone and i called them sometimes 2 times a day because i really needed help and to be listened to but i couldn’t talk to them for 30 days i heard this message it went to voicemail when i tried to call them , im really tired and im feeling really unwell of my statements getting into Scope spam i remember this feeling of helplessness loneliness breakdown when i couldn’t express my feelings thoughts on the forum and how long it lasted and how broken i felt then

charl1234

Bless you hunny big hugs I have not seen posts but I'm sure u where OK, and I don't think a place like scope would stop you posting try distract yourself, keep well and huge hugs

Agnia

im really sorry but im feeling unwell

Agnia

no I’m sorry unwell is not a correct word, im feeling really sick

Albus_Scope

Hey @Agnia did you receive Holly's email that she sent you yesterday? I hope you're feeling a bit better today.

Santosha12

Good afternoon @Agnia I've not been on here for a few days and I'm ever so sorry you've not been feeling very well ♥️. Sending you hugs and my very warmest wishes.

If you need to speak to Samaritans but cannot get through, apparently the NHS 111 service is available 24 hours a day and you can press Option 2, for mental health support. I've not used it but MIND told me about it. I'm sorry I wasn't on here to be able to tell you this the other day.

I really hope you are feeling a bit better today. Please look after yourself and be kind to yourself. Very warmest hugs to you Agnia and take care ❤️ 💐 🌹.

Agnia

Hi @Albus_Scope , thank you for writing to me , yes i received Hollys email and She wrote to me that if i need emotional support i can text shout or call Saneline or i can make an appointment with my regular gp,

To be honest i felt really bad ( i still do ) and i doubted myself again and all that i wrote about my work ( i put a lot of effort into writing it ), and i felt very stupid, and i tried to post it on the Scope forum but i couldn’t do it ( i didn’t have time to take the screenshot of the message that appeared on my phone screen when i tried to publish a topic that had a title - woman as an entrepreneur,) and my post was suspended and not published and this is not the first time this has happened and made me question my value again which has already been lowered before in the past as well and

Agnia

and that led me to write a post asking for my topic what i wrote earlier ( woman as an entrepreneur) to be deleted, please really i would also like to mention ( I’m feeling quilty writing it) that i sincerely apologise to every single person if i ever misspelled someones name and please i would like to explain here that i felt really bad and quilty and didn’t have the courage for asking you about it earlier, and i really valued our contact and communication on this Scope forum, but im really truly very sorry when you @Bluebell21 wrote my name Agina again and again and again i did ask you what is the reason and im really not overly sensitive about my name .

i really don’t wish anyone to be alone to have family members who says that im pretending that im old ( my gp said that im young) that i should get myself together and go to work , that my mother didn’t give birth to me that they abandoned me that’s what ive heard and that no one wants me and more, this is too much for me

Bluebell21

Hi @Agnia from memory I spelt your name wrong twice and I did apologise and say it was a typing error.

I use the drop down box for names and this facility for a time did not work too well and after typing someone's name several times to get it to light up it sometimes happened that it was spelt wrongly.

I am sorry you are feeling alone even on the forum. I had thought with several posts you have made that you were doing really well on the forum and joining in more.

I have not fallen out with you and have not contacted you recently as I thought that was was what you wanted.

Please take care of yourself.

Agnia

Hi @Bluebell21 with all respect you misspelled my name 5 time and day after day .

Agnia

it’s not about me being overly sensitive of my name, it’s about something different.

Albus_Scope

I'm sorry you're feeling that way @Agnia but I must say Bluebell has apologised regarding the errors in spelling your name. I'm not sure what more can be done here?

As for your discussion getting stuck in the spam filter, as Holly has explained, this can happen to anyone and it's in no way targeted. Holly has also set things up so that shouldn't happen again. 😊

Agnia

Hi dear @Santosha12 , thank you so much, I’m sending you warm hugs. ♥️

WhatThe

Agnia, I'm so sorry to read this! I saw your thread yesterday but did not know when it was posted.

Yesterday was a bank holiday so I imagine moderators were off duty for much of the weekend.

You are very wanted on this forum. It's the only one I use and I'd be alone without it too!

All I know about the many mental health breakdowns I have had is that it's easier to heal when I remember that I have recovered previously. That it's hard but not impossible. That tomorrow is a new day.

I'm wondering if the Pope's death has affected you in any way? I'm sure you said you were raised as a Catholic.