pip home assessment aniexty

amanda8289

Hi all, I  successfully won my request for  a home visit due to help from my  local mp and seeing a doctor at my gp surgery who backed my request for home assessment but not before  paying gp surgery for the letter first. I received a pip appointment for  home assessment on 28th of this month then Friday last week  ( 21st ) i received a letter to  say my appointment is cancelled & it's now 2nd of August   (NO explanation why they have done this). I have had  fit upon fit  (I'm epileptic ) & my aniexty,depression  have gone into over drive i lost my  Temper  big time. I also suffer from clinical depression post traumatic stress disorder & only recently found out i have  emotional unstable personality as well. I can't copy with the stress of it all. I feel like it's they have   deliberately changed it & i don't have anyone else with me for the assessment & i get very agitated very quickly which some  people class as aggressive but it is part of one  my conditions (god knows which one) I AM panicking 

Sam_Alumni

Hi @amanda8289 Im sorry to hear this, it would be really useful for you to have someone with you during the assessment, is there anyone who can help?

amanda8289

My son was there for me I've put a update on how it went n my concerns 

amanda8289

Hi everyone,  I've returned to scope after going through hell the last few years, i really need to apologise for any rudeness/ snappy behaviour to anyone on here I am  sorry for behaving in this manner. 😢  since I was last on here so many things have happened and I did attempt to end it all last January. I've done it so many times now that I think I either can't do anything right or I am meant to remain here for further torture I really do think that I must of been a really bad person in a pervious life for all the **** that has happened and continues to happen in this lifetime.  Sorry for the morbid update but its only hoe I feel and the truth 😔 

Albus_Scope

Hey @amanda8289 good to see you on the community again.  Please, there's no need to apologise, life always has a nasty way of testing us and sometimes that can reflect in our words. But we all know better than to judge on that.  

Have you spoken to anyone about these thoughts? Your GP perhaps?

Leigh14

amanda8289 said:

Hi everyone,  I've returned to scope after going through hell the last few years, i really need to apologise for any rudeness/ snappy behaviour to anyone on here I am  sorry for behaving in this manner. 😢  since I was last on here so many things have happened and I did attempt to end it all last January. I've done it so many times now that I think I either can't do anything right or I am meant to remain here for further torture I really do think that I must of been a really bad person in a pervious life for all the **** that has happened and continues to happen in this lifetime.  Sorry for the morbid update but its only hoe I feel and the truth 😔 

Hi Amanda. I’m so sorry that you’re feeling so low. I understand completely that when things come tumbling down, everything feels so much worse. 

I know a few people that have lost loved ones through suicide, and they’ve been left absolutely devastated and heartbroken, and will never get over it. Can you speak to your son, Samaritans or even a counsellor?
You can only deal with one thing at a time, one day at a time. Little steps help.
🤗🤗