Hi, my name is InfiniteSeries!

InfiniteSeries

Hi I’m new. 

I’m sexually dysfunctional, due to my extensive trauma history. I had no sexual arousal even when seeing complete nakedness during sex. I said I don’t understand what sex means as an adult. Every time when there’s sexual intimacy, I feel extreme humiliation all over again, as though the abuse was happening again. I was abused from age 1-24, suffered extreme sexual, physical and psychological ritual abuse. Plus, I always have the tendency to feel forced during sex, resembling rape, with my partner. The inclination to wanting to feel forced in everything sexual, was programmed by my past abusers. I couldn’t seem to be natural.

thespiceman

Hello @InfiniteSeries   Pleased to  meet you.

Thank you for joining and sharing.

I am one of the team of Community Champions. We advise and help support members of our Community.

Please may I suggest first have you spoken to your GP.

This organisation may be able to help.

Sexual Advice Association

https://www.sexualadviceassociation.co.uk.

Helpline 0207 486 7262

Please take care.

@thespiceman

janer1967

@InfiniteSeries Hello and welcome to the community, and thank you for sharing with us your story, I cant imagine it is easy to talk about. I hope you get the support you need and the link you have been given is useful. 

chiarieds

Hi @InfiniteSeries - Welcome to this supportive & friendly community. I am very saddened to read about the awful trauma you have suffered. I don't know if you've looked into getting help from charities that have an understanding about this. Mind has a web page of those you could approach. See: https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/guides-to-support-and-services/abuse/sexual-abuse/  Perhaps they might be helpful, particularly NAPAC.

Please do say if there's any way in which we as a community may also help, & do talk here any time.

Ails

Hi @InfiniteSeries and welcome to the Community.  It is nice to meet you and thank you for sharing with us.  Can I say how brave you have been in coming on here and opening up to us.  You have done the right thing.  I am so sorry to hear of what you have been through.  Please do try to look into the excellent links and advice you have been given by other members above.  We are all here to support you on the forum and you can talk to us anytime as there will always be someone here to listen.  The Community is a very safe environment in which to chat and people on here are lovely.  I hope you find some support for yourself and please keep in touch and let us know how you are getting on.  If we can be of any help to you at all then please just get in touch.  All the best.