BPD and social isolation

JadeB90

Hi everyone
 I have a diagnosis that's best described as 'complex mental health needs'...i've been diagnosed with various mental health issues, but the main one is BPD, closely followed by schizo-affective disorder and PTSD.
 I really struggle with getting out of bed most days, let alone leaving the house. I had been isolating myself since last april anyway, except for my psychotherapy appointments and that therapy finished at the end of January. Because of this, i've only left the house twice since then, both for doctors appointments. I moved to a new town in 2017, and i've not managed to make any friends so that doesn't help. Usually i'm OK with that, as i've never really had a lot of friends, but I turned 30 back in February and for some reason the loneliness has really been creeping in. 
 Thing is, i'm so used to being inside and not interacting with the world that I'm actually quite scared and embarrassed by it. I don't know where to begin in going out, the thought of even a supermarket leads to panic attacks. I have the techniques to work through them, but it doesn't always make me feel better and i'm hyper aware of people looking at me.
 Do any of you have any advice at all? i'd really appreciate points of view so thanks if you got this far into my rambling  

 Jade x

Chloe_Scope

Hi @JadeB90 and welcome to the community! Thank you for taking the time to share this with us. Do you have any support at the moment?

Here is some information from MIND about self-care and panic attacks. You might already do these things but I hope it is useful to go over things.

Please do stay in touch and let us know how you get on.

JadeB90

Hi @Chloe_Scope thanks for your reply. I have my fiance for support but he is an essential worker so he works full-time.  I sometimes feel my issues are trivial in retrospect and so I struggle with reaching out for support. Thank you for the mind info.  

Chloe_Scope

Hi @JadeB90, any problem you face is just as important. Please do reach out when it's needed.

janer1967

Hi and welcome, I am no expert on your issues but as you have a partner for support have you discussed this with him

I know he works full time but maybe you would feel more secure if you went out together and did a little bit at a time to build your confidence.

I thnk it is important to get out if you can a bit of fresh air and sunshine makes us all feel better 

Chloe_Scope

Hi @JadeB90, how are you doing today?