Pip and casual work advice please

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  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Hi every one so today didn’t go to plan . My partner and nurse were right I was not ready I made a total fool of my self . Even tho I must of come Across like I was insane the manager still said to contact her if I want to try again she said she will keep me  as cover staff but I can let her know if I wish to try again we’ll not for another 6 to 12 months I said . I’m so embarrassed I hate how my illness has affected me im a laughing stock I’m not feeling very well every one so I might not be on the site for a little while as I’m really not feeling so good . Thank you for all your support and well wishes . 
  • poppy123456
    poppy123456 Online Community Member Posts: 63,185 Championing
    I'm sorry to hear that! Don't give yourself such a hard time. You're not a laughing stock at all. Sometimes we should listen to the advice given by others. Take time for yourself, put your feet up and relax and try again when you're feeling a little better.
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Thank you for you kind words I’ll be back on the forum when feeling better I’m not feeling well at all . And yeh my nurse and partner were right I’m not ready for work . My nurse actually said she didn’t think 5 minutes of work was good I was offended at the time but she’s right . Im always in such a hurry to not be like this to get better but I don’t think I will ever get better I’m not feeling well at all I’ll be back on The forum when feeling better thank you for all for your support it means a lot to me xx
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,682 Championing
    edited November 2020
    @cupcake88 - remember you are a strong person, & have overcome so much. Perhaps you were not ready to try a few hours employment, & perhaps you were, but felt you might let you prospective employer down? You'll get there, as you are one determined lady.
    Please do stay in touch; you are an important member of our community. Take a few days off by all means, but please do let us all know how you're doing. Personally I would really miss hearing from you. :)
  • janer1967
    janer1967 Online Community Member Posts: 21,922 Championing
    @cupcake88 sorry it didnt work out but at least you tried and thought about getting back to work and that is a huge step especially after all you have been through 

    Take care and yes have rest get yourself better and look forward to hearing from you when you are ready x x 
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,452 Championing
    I'm with the others @cupcake88. You're definitely not a laughing stock, and we look forward to having you back on the community whenever you're ready :) 
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Thank you all for your kind words of supports it means so much to me . It wasn’t a good idea that I went but it sort of was because it was good to push my self and also I hate to say my partner was right ha . 

    I used to make things and sell them online but my concentration has become very bad so I might try doing that again next year making cards and Home decor things but I will wait till I’m feeling better . I tried making little Christmas angel charms but there Weren’t  good enough to sell my concentration is very poor at the moment .

    im lucky enough to have an amazing partner who supports me . But I don’t like relying on him financially yes I have pip now so I’m able to help a little bit but not as much as I would like . I do have a little savings pot for us for emergencies. My Partner always says I help a lot I clean , I do the washing and I look after him but I feel like it’s the other way around he looks after me . I just want to so badly get back to how i was but I feel like that part of me has gone .

    i have been threw some traumatic events that has  changed me . I feel like I’m constantly mourning the old me if that makes sense . 

    But I do want to say that there are nice employers out there who are understanding I didn’t think there was but this lady who gave me the cleaning job couldn’t of been nicer . 

    Thank you to you for your support means so much xxxx


  • janer1967
    janer1967 Online Community Member Posts: 21,922 Championing
    Glad to see you back @cupcake88 just give yourself time there is no rush to get back to work

    You are being useful and supportive to your partner and I am sure he cherishes the things you do for him. A relationship is a partnership where you both do what you can to support each other and thats not just financial and it sounds like you have a great relationship and that is something to be proud of
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Thank you for your kind words and support xx
  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,682 Championing
    Hi @cupcake88 - it's lovely to see you back in the community. It sounds like you & your partner are fortunate to have each other, & each other's understanding, which is what matters. It's a pleasure for those of us who have got to know you here to hope to support you, as you do the same for others. :)
  • cupcake88
    cupcake88 Posts: 1,412 Trailblazing
    Thank you so much for your lovely words it means a lot to me . This forum has done so much good for my illness . I feel like I have made friends with every one on here and we all support each other xx
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,452 Championing
    I'm glad you find the community so supportive @cupcake88 :) As the others have said, it sounds like your partner really values you.
    I feel like I’m constantly mourning the old me if that makes sense . 
    That makes a lot of sense, and I think it's something many people experience. Coincidentally, we have that topic in our calendar to make a post about next month. In the meantime, I found this blog post by Blurt that talks about mourning the person you were before depression, which you might you can relate to? 

  • chiarieds
    chiarieds Online Community Member Posts: 16,682 Championing
    The above post from Blurt helps me understand depression a little better. Their ones on anxiety & breathing exercises also seem good. Perhaps you could make a post about these @Tori_Scope to make them more widely available to others? :)
  • Tori_Scope
    Tori_Scope Scope Posts: 12,452 Championing
    edited November 2020
    Good idea @chiarieds! I've put that on my to-do list :)