I feel like a freak

Ibelive2020

Have you éver félt nőt wanted ? Yes thats how i feel atm nőt wanted ignored and im trying my best dönt seem good enough oh well 

ajc457

Hi 

I am so sorry you feel like that, I wish I could take away your pain. 

Cher_Alumni

Hello @Ibelive2020

Firstly, a big squeezy virtual hug from me.  You are doing amazingly well coping with the lockdown and home-schooling your kids, and are far from a freak.  You are a lovely, kind-natured, funny, friendly person and all your friends on the community would back me up there

I know you've felt a bit wobbly lately, and I want to reiterate the support that @Tori_Scope signposted you to last week.  If ever you need to chat to someone, please contact:

• SHOUT: text SHOUT to 85258 to speak to a volunteer over text
• Samaritans: ring 116 123, or email jo@samaritans.org for 24/7 support

Has anything in-particular happened today?  If you want to talk more about it, please do.  You won't get any judgement here and it's a safe space surrounded by people who want the best for you 

[Deleted User]

I often wonder "Why am I here?!" was I just put on this Earth to make up the numbers in an already overpopulated world? I can't get a job due to disability, I'm still single at nearly 45, and I'm also a virgin, and I failed everything except typing at school 30 years ago in June.

I currently live alone in a 1 bedroom Housing Association Flat, with regular visits from the carers, before the Housing disbanded their "Cluster project" about 11 years ago they had a good social vibe and regular outings, but like everything the funding got stopped.

I do prefer living alone in a 1 bed place though, I tried shared living when I was a student and hated it, and not just for the simple fact I could never get in the bathroom in a morning unless I got up at daft o'clock before everyone else.

Ibelive2020

@ajc457 thanks @Cher_scope think alot of things áré getting on top of me atm and thanks virtual húgs back xx

Ibelive2020

@MrAllen1976 you was put on this earth because your meant tó be and so what if your still a virgin your nőt missing out on much lol 

Lisatho11987777

@Ibelive2020 you are wanted and you are loved your children love you I love you as my friend  I am always here for you and you know that whatever time of day or night 

Love you loads my funky chicken friend xxx

BrettW

You're just having an off day @Ibelive2020 we all have them   You are not a freak xxx

janer1967

You mean the world to your family and that's a lot more than some people have 

You have a lot to deal with and should be proud of all you do 

Keep your chin up try think of what you have rather than what you dont 
Current times are hard 

You know you have support here 

Ibelive2020

@janer1967 i mean the world tó my partner and kids thats áll i have as i got brought up in care 3 my siblings have died my műm is dead and i have just found out through my local paper thát my dad died in dec 2020 my rémaining sister who has my number dos nőt tx me 2 Lét me know so yep i missed my dads funeral she done sámé when my műm died and she took 14 thousand pound off hér and áll hét jewellery we have nőt spoken for 16 months she has not éver -met my son whos 3 and shes nőt --bőthered tó come c hér nieces and nephews for 5 years so yep such a lovely sister i have she éven máde horrible remarks about my dead baby 

Ibelive2020

@BrettW Thanks xx @lisathomas50 love you tóo xxx

Ibelive2020

@woodbine thanks bút its got nothing tó do with lockdown idc bout lockdown i rarely go out anyway

Scottyboy

@MrAllen1976 As a man of a similar age, I understand parts of what you are saying. Its clear that you are comparing yourself to other people (which is easy to do), but you have to remember that you have a purpose, it may not be obvious sometimes, but you have to believe that. And you have to try and come to terms with who you are and to acknowledge that life just isn't fair. But that does not mean that you cannot carve out a happy and fulfilling life for yourself. Have you thought about some therapy to begin to talk through how you feel?