The Employment Problem
So I have multiple disabilities
Neurofibromatosis type 1 - this causes issues with my bones, muscles, nerves and causes tumours (are mostly benign but some can be cancerous, but some can grow in areas that then causes pain and mobility issues) I have cognitive issues due to NF1, learning difficulties and dsylexia I also have psudarthrosis due to it. It causes pain and mobility issues alongside the NF1 ones,
I have Depression , anxiety these tie into NF1 and my other condtion ADHD.
oh and arthritis...
All these cause various issues...
I can do physical jobs as I walk with a stick , cant stand long, cant carry much and walk/move ect....
I can do mentally taxing jobs due to everything else....
before having kids I jumped from job to job because I tried to push myself physically and couldnt do it anymore and had to quit...
or I did a office job and couldnt make the targets, couldnt make the min re targets they set just for me, made constant mistakes, or get things very wrong due to my learning difficulties, dsylexia and cognitive issues, as well as poor memory and concertration. no matter how much support (usually not much but sometimes they did at least try) I had I would not be able to keep up and do what was requited of me.
so many times I was trained , re trained , had supervisers sit with me micromanaging me (this really triggered my anxiety and made work life torture)
I would be called into offices to say how behind I was, how I was making too mnay mistakes , how im creating more work than Im doing , how I am letting everyone down , how they are investing lots of time in me and they dont believe Im retunring the favour (ie being lazy)
Eventually I would be let go and if they couldnt do that life would be made so unbearable I would quit.
i just do not see what work I could possibly ever do. who would even want me? I wouldnt want me.
my husband proof reads and edits most things for me. He also knows how to explain most things to me.
There are so many things I cant understand without help...
I am currently a stay at home mum but things are getting tight....
I will unlikely be able to start work until my youngest get full fundeed hours. As we cant afford the fees and any job Id have wont pay them
my husband earns 22k but after tax, student loans (on old system) and his pension and dental plan comes out ( he needs it he has a bone muscle problem in his mouth) he takes home 1300 a month. we then have child tax credit (dont qualify for tax credits) child benifit and my pip which were currently fighting for because appparentnly my creative degree means I have no cognitive issues hallauha!
We dont qaulify for any other help have done all the online calculators ect...
I just dont understand how there isnt more help for people like me... What employer would take me? What work can I actually do if I constantly make mistakes and never get enough done?
I want to contribute and earn money but I just dont see how... I cant work full time every time I have I have had a mental brakedown, or its triggered physical flare ups..
The way ESA works as its only contribution based I cant get it.... I dont think theres anything else I can get...
I keep getting told work from home like thats a magical answer, but what would I do? I cant transcribe as that a huge thing I sturggle with and people have to do that for me lol
I dont have a particular skill, or tallent...
I just dont know what I can do...
I am causing my family to struggle because I cannot work full time and bring home a second wage and I hate that ....
I know Im not alone here... I dont know what the answer is
