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Well grumpy1314

I'm off to bed gotta get my son up for school in a little over 6hrs, it was a pleasure talking to you, you really brightened up my evening, sometimes it's nice to talk sometimes about meaningless things like music and books films ect just to get you out of feeling down because of the day, week, months or even years we've had it rough. I hope brightend up your evening also goodnight chat soon 🙂

Wowsers 😳 you’ve had a lucky escape!!

When I married the first ex wife, her brother come up to me and said whatever you do, don’t let my mum get involved in your marriage! Fair to say it was like being married to two people, my first ex rushed me into getting engaged four months after we got together, she was cruel, emotionally abusive, controlling, threatened me with a knife, I walked out after 8 months of marriage, gave it another go twice, then she told me I’d be better off on my terms wm or with someone without kids, tried the last option which lasted one month shy of ten years and four and a bit of those were married, she had a lot of insecurities, she would always hide that she hadn’t been paying the bills, I’d get a what’s app message from the landlady, saying why hasn’t the rent been paid and we owed over £1,500 I’d lose my rag, leading to an argument and the ex going upstairs crying, she would turn around and say naively “I didn’t tell you because you would go off like this” she desperately wanted kids, but although I initially did when we got together, she wasn’t happy and couldn’t forgive me when put a stop to it because I said I’m not having a kid, with my mental health problems as it wouldn’t be fair.

She started to screw with my head towards the end, saying we need more intimacy ( my labido had gone south with the penguins over the last four and a half years) we need to go out more, you need to come to bed more, I would sit on the bed at night with her and the dog until she fell asleep and then be washing her uniform so she could be at work for 8 the next morning, I was giving her morphine for a stomach condition and another medication for a rare migraine condition that gave off symptoms of a stroke! Then in the last few months, she started saying “Oh I’d be screwed if we split up because you own 90% of the stuff in the house” could tell her best friend was in her ear! The night before she dropped the bombshell, she said I need some space, I’m going and staying in a hotel overnight as I need to think! I used to vent on Facebook, she send me message after message saying why couldn’t you let me have one night on my own, I’ve been up all night crying, she then sent me a text saying she wasn’t going to her health appointment and was going to see her friend and then coming home! I spiralled, self harmed, packed two bags, kissed the dog goodbye and admitted myself to hospital! First week on the mental health unit she told her dad, went public, then was sending me messages about oh I’m having to box all your books up as I’m giving the chair to the dog and getting rid of your sofa as I can’t bear to look at it, also saying oh do you want my big suitcase for all of your clothes, then unfriended me and blocked me, saying it hurt to much to see me on Facebook!! All the while I was on suicide watch! I had my revenge though the first week, as I sent a message to the landlady asking to be taken off the tenancy agreement, that me and my ex were not together, and that I was on a mental health unit, first my ex knew about it was the landlady ringing her up! What narked me, but also angered the OT and Staff on the ward is for the last four plus years I’d been asking her to get help for her own mental health, nah I don’t need to speak to anyone, I don’t need to go on meds, I’m happy when your happy etc. She had the gall to put in her Facebook post - Mental Health had claimed another victim in brackets, then below she was walking away for her own mental health! When I told the OT about the demands she had been placing on me, she told me to stop and have a think for a moment and said “Do you think she was doing more damage to your mental health by placing those demands on you” I was like a horse having blinkers removed “ I said Sugar your right” certainly made me see her and our relationship in a different light! When I went to collect my things, I took a small side table with me, the extension cables for Sky and TV Aerial that I had installed and then as I was going out of the door I picked up a Scotty Dog Door Stop and went come on, your coming with me!

I wanted to serve my country.

Hello Amaya_Ringo 🙂 sorry you had to stupidley early day ,

glad you finished earlier and you are either enjoying your new team or new job or both,

don't know much about your story hun but if you have troubles in crowds or anxiety issues well done for catching that bus as having these issues and doing that is a big thing that not many of us can do without mobility, anxiety, or cognitive issues playing on our mind or body.

If you have non of the issue I mentioned well done any your helping our planet by not pumping out more petrol that needs to be in our atmosphere as the buses run anyway.

Hope you enjoyed that cake 🙂 glad you enjoyed the sun yesterday weather was fabulous

Grumpy1314

You deserve better hun both my long term ex s was hard work in one way or the other, sorry you missed your medication time I'm the same when I get nattering the one spend his money on childish thing when we was in alot of debt and he had thoughts of doing things to himself and others he was under the mental health bracket the really serious one but I only found out after he did something stupid what register he was on.

he always put me down actually wrote a poem after we split cried my eyes out was my first long term relationship and I thought I loved him and beloved him even with what he'd put me and himself though anyway won't get to much into this put the poem might inspire others. He did have his plus side money wise before he reigned and went on the sick for his mental health. We'd always pool our money together pay the bills then what was left we'd split 50/50,

Step out of the darkness and into the light. But you wouldn't know darkness unless there was light.

For it it was always dark all you'd know is depression, degradation and despair and if there was only light you wouldn't know luck you were.

He always put me down so much called, me stupid idiot fat,!!!

but there'll be no one now to cook him tea, to give him hugs to love him as much as me.

Now I've put him in the past now the futures bright at last, for those goals he said I was to stupid to achieve,

I'm not stupid and I will succeed.

So tell me who's who's the stupid one now!!!!

Anyway the second was the complete opposite seemed god at the start then when we moved in together everything changed money wise was like his money was his mine was to pay bills and shopping if there was anything left he'd find an excuse that he needed that also lije I had a work do coat less than twenty pounds ohhhh we can't afford that but would kick off if I said he couldn't have the latest xbox game out that cost fifty four pounds.

He'd make me feel guilty if I went next door for a cuppa and a chat he'd say after an argument go on then tell the neighbours everything ect. Made me feel like I couldn't even talk about my feelings outside the home I was so upset I'd storm off without any socks or shoes outside just to calm down obviously upset feeling I can't even tell anyone 😢 but when he put his hands on me that was it I threw him out there was police involvement, we'd broken up on numerous occasions he'd always worm his way back in. But that time hell no!!!

took a restraining order and a pin notice to finally get him gone, and was still in and out of family court because we have a child and he refused to give him back after contact, thank god for his current fiance also got his sights off me. But she paid a heavft price lost her kids because of him.

Anyway brighter side we're better off without them

Morning All, been up for over 24 hours without any sleep! Missed all my meds last night which wasn’t good. Then I’ve gone to have a wash and a shave, to go into town, then I’ve sat down and the Long Wuhan Plague Fatigue kicked in 🥱 done 20 laps on the F1 Game to take my mind off things. Just ordered some breakfast, too exhausted to cook. Decided I’m going to give the Mental Health Team a chance to call me back today, but if they don’t they will be getting a call from Victor Meldrew!

It’s ok, it was nice to have a natter with like minded people 😊 I’m safe now that I’m doped up with painkillers and other meds. Just got a heavy metal radio station on at the moment which helps clear the old cobwebs. My neighbour below is in her late 70s and likes AC⚡️DC, although she does like the Rolling Stones who personally I don’t rate.

Cold here 2 degrees

Sun trying to get out

I was up a few times last night