How is your day going?

Good evening.. another night will pass. This is ok and scary are the same time as time passes so quickly... Hope you have a nice evening and night. Anyway.

Good morning all

i had a so so day. at times was ok but also i had been very jumpy. my anxiety is really bad. i went to the oriental shop and bought some food, noodles etc.. .. and now i a m at home. i am not sure what to do to be honest. i am always got that feeling of being scared and it does not stop. i am really tired of this… everyday is the same and the prospects for recovery very slim. i rather do not think about it. i hope you have a good evening… and night. i still did not have the courage to write down a message in my journal about that deduction. i probably ill try to do it tomorrow. but it is very hard for me to find the courage to do almost anything. it takes take and loads of willpower to do things, i just rather feel like being in bed with all blinds on. as dark as possible and stay there. rather bleak….. the future is.

I am rather angry with myself. I really hate myself when I misplace stuff. My memory is so bad and this was a shopping list. Now I probably will have to be in the place walking around until I remember the stuff I wrote down. Fact chance. I am sure I did not throw it away . I might never find that list. Hence the reason I really have to tidy up. Anyway I will try to forget about it as it really angers me on how useless I am.. it was an IKEA list. I know it was not big stuff a couple of things the rest is good I think. It is silly but for me Is a mountain. Only people with anxiety knows the feeling . I can not help it..