How is your day going?

I feel like life's pass me by. I'm. Getting older

This isn't how I waht to live

Akways wanted to travel the world

Have this dream I win the lottery and I buy a farm in UK and a holiday homes in spain USA and carribean

I waht to. Visit all of the carribean islands with my camera

Be amazing

Alas on benefits in a dropping to bits house with debts and I'll. Health

It will never happen

Amberpearl…hey how’s it going? Just got to bed myself. Really fatigued and staggering all over the place but at least I didn’t fall over! I like your dreams and hang onto them. One day everything will change for the better. Everyone gets older so don’t worry. Keep plugging away and don’t lose hope.Contact anyone you know and chat to them to discuss your issues. Something will turn up….it always does .

@Amberpearl sorry to see you write that… I think you're justified feeling like that to be honest… it's a little annoying when people try to change the way we think when there's a good reason for it… but we all have to make the best and you're an interesting person, I love reading your posts. Do you still have lots of cats?

@Grumpy1314 it's kinda interesting (not in a perverted way) to hear that, like I used to think I was hard done by having many of my issues all my life but in a way it must be harder to acquire them. My mum used to say (as a throwaway comment, no experience) it's easier for people born blind than those who lose their sight, maybe it's similar with most disabilities?

In a way I don't think we ever should fully make peace but I guess it's a case of where to invest your time/energy, find a way of living with stuff, I guess putting energy into adapting rather than mourning what we lost? I know that's MUCH easier said than done, I don't manage it lots of the time 😆

I feel miserable

Can't go do anything no money no car no freinds

Too many bills

I feel awful . At about noon l need to go to my stuff on Fridays.. But I really find it hard... I can not wait to go to.sleep bu now I am not sure as I had yet another bad night. Only a windfall of.money will help me not to feel this scared.

@Catherine21 great words, all I can add is that I agree 👍

@Grumpy1314 is "BPD" short for bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder - now called emotionally unstable personality disorder (EUPD)? I was diagnosed with EUPD shortly after the name changed because the change also affected the criteria. I was used as a case-in-point because apparently borderline personality disorder was diagnosed partly through negative behaviours toward others and EUPD reflects that somebody can be, say, angry or abusive, towards themselves but not toward others, which is me. Like I think things about myself that I'd never think of someone else…stuff that if you did to say to another person you'd get arrested. 😆 That kinda sounds a bit like you like self-critical and stuff?

It's like there's 2 extremes, one where you think the world and everyone is at fault and you go super defensive even aggressive…then the other is more insular where you think you're to blame, even if someone is at fault like is rude to you, you just conclude it's because you deserved it

Not trying to diagnose anything just find it interesting to share with someone who potentially has similar stuff

Its so beautiful.

I can't walk very far but I enjoy the scenery on the car journey and sitting in a nice beer garden.

@Albus_Scope

I am blessed living by the sea and close to the beautiful countryside.

People pay a lot of money to holiday here and the amount of tourists does impact our lives negatively during the holiday season but its lovely once things get less busy.