How is your day going?

nice cat.. the people came but my room did not need to be checked so they did not enter… but afterwards i just could not find the courage of leaving the room so i did not go to my wednesday s volunteering. i can do this in the place i volunteer but i could not do that in a proper job. and that is the problem….. so i do not think i will be ever prepared… have a good day…. and i really would like to be prepared for to do some kind of job but i am not sure it will ever happen.. anyway.. enjoy the day.. weather is not great… it might rain…

@Schildpad

I think I get what you mean about work. I often get the same where if I'm made to do something, or if someone is counting on me, I find it harder to do what I could easily have done if it were left to my discretion

It's like if I promise to meet someone somewhere at a certain time it's suddenly really hard working out how I'll get there but if I was just going there in my own time it would be easier

@Grumpy1314

I don't really agree*, it goes without saying, though I kinda get the impression you don't either deep down?? Like if you really thought it was true you'd just disappear without a trace but you're posting on here so you must realise there are people who think you're worth listening to

It's weird as I get the same about my self worth but I don't like hearing someone else say stuff I'd happily say about myself 😆 my support worker told me to not say things about myself that I'd not say to a friend, that kind of helped me think about stuff a bit differently

*actually I agree with a lot like the mental system and the politics but not the overall conclusion about yourself

@Grumpy1314 I feel quite teary reading your post, I recognise myself in your feelings of despair, alot of us on this site, will have likely felt like you at some point in time, especially when you have a mental health diagnosis.

Im sure you are not un lovable. I read your posts on hear. Yesterday you talked about your passion for war and history memorabilia. I didn't post, as it isn't anything I'd understand much about. But it was nice to read your posts and see a shared passion with another person on here.

I think we all have up and down days and feel really down at times. You have been through some very hard times. Give yourself time to heal and do what you can, when you can.

You have shared about your plants and getting your flat sorted out, small steps but some positive ones.

@66Mustang & @WhatThe i don't think any one, was meaning to be insensitive. We are a bunch of people who all have different diagnosis's, challenges and hardships. We just need to try and understand that we all have different ways of saying things. I think the fact we are reading each other's post's shows we care.

P.s I loved the cat picture. Your advice for bills was a good share too.

Im sure i made my bed, before she sneaked in.

@Grumpy1314

I'm glad to see you on here

Sorry I can't write much as I'm struggling now

I don't want to make a fuss or make @WhatThe feel bad but just want to be honest as that's the best way to get true support from people… but it's knocked my (I realise very delicate) self-worth reading that I was insensitive for saying that you are worth listening to

I'm really sorry for coming across like a horrible person but I don't understand how I was saying something bad

All I know is I was saying it because I wanted you to know you're a worthy person and if anyone thought I was horrible I guess I can't do anything about that, as someone who's going through similar I don't like writing generic posts, I want to write honest stuff to actually help

@Grumpy1314 your whisky barrels look lovely

Just an idea, and it'd be one of those things that only a few people would "get" but thosse who noticed would chuckle …….. but what about planting barley in one of them? 😂 Barley is quite hardy and low-maintenance I believe, and it's actually quite pretty

Thank you.

Today is a nice day. Sun is outI wait for the post and then will go for out even if it is a stroll around the neighbourhood. And back home.. and I wil try not to think too much.. tomorrow I want to be ok for.my Fridays stuff.