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  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,486 Championing

    Wow I just came across Carl jung titled The Dangers of seeing what others don't! Blew my mind of why I'm feeling the way I am I'm convinced adhd autism gives you a sixth sense from a child I've had great abilities to read people and a room I absorb people's energy that's why I've isolated for years as I get burnt out wow was such an intreasting article

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    I am trying to skip messages related to benefits.. there is a lot of scaremongering to make people feel very scared. ... It keeps happening...if I get a letter I deal with it. But media wants us to be scared.

    I am scared about everything but I have worried too much in the past and it did not happen. It is better not to worry . And I know it is hard writing this while my heart is racing…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    I am. Cutting on it. And also lottery etc .

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    I wsnt to cut completly but I am better than before as it was very bad.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,486 Championing

    Thats good you do volunteering and get out I'm really isolated

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering
    edited August 28

    I want to stop them altogether the cards that is.. Hopefully soon. . I am considering some changes for next year. I really need to find something I can do workwise.. relaying on the system is very scary And it is always the possibility of losing the benefits. So I need to try something. .retiring age is far away and not sure what will i get. but future is so uncertain…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    @Catherine21 i am in a way volunteering … but it is only for a few hours on mondays wednesdays and fridays . i am a volunteer and member at the same time. on thursdays i am a member of another place.. so i am trying to go out and meet people. but today left me really bad. i am a very kind person but sometimes i overreact.. but i feel i am over doing it.. too much . but the feeling of the uncertain is worse. so i do not know what to do really.

  • Albus_Scope
    Albus_Scope Posts: 10,787 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    A few hours is still great @Schildpad so you're doing great. 😊

    Have you thought about what kind of work you'd like to do?

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    @Catherine21

    considering cutting off caffeine as well… that is another thing. maybe caffeine free stuff. i hope tomorrow i will feel better, now i regret the situation and i would probably let it go if it happens again. and do nothing but it is now too late. anyway.. i am waiting for the time to go to bed. maybe a film or two and bed time. but i completely lost my appetite.

  • WelshBlue
    WelshBlue Online Community Member Posts: 896 Championing
    edited August 28

    @Grumpy1314 as a fellow petrol-head have you watched Junk & Disorderly, Bangers & Cash and Salvage Hunters Classic Cars … they're about the only things I watch on TV

    All informative but ever so slightly depressing. From oil cans to cars if only I'd known what the things I gave away or scrapped would be worth today

    One being the shell and running gear of a Ford Mk 3 RS 1600i … I had no room for it so gave it away. Worth upwards of £20,000 just as a non runner. Hindsight is such a wonderful thing

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    @Albus_Scope with my ptsd from my previous job i do not really want to do anything similar to that job.. it will have to be something very quiet. but i am considering to do something. i need to be diagnosed properly.. i am sure i have autism and ptsd and adhd but only diagnosed as anxiety and depression. i am finally got a referral to the anxiety clinic . i hope they accept me.. and i can try to start treatment and it works. and maybe the find out if i have something else other that anxiety and depression that i am sure i have. i think nobody will want to hire me. as i have too many issues mentally and physically but also visually. i have mentioned before i have nf1 .not many companies will accept me.. maybe one that deals with similar people. i will see.. my friend says she could not be in my situation relying on the system etc.. and i can not blame her it is so distressing. my resolution is really find something i can do. maybe part time. maybe only one day a week. or two and move to more days little by little.

    i am thinking about museums etc.. one of those where people are sitting down checking people are not touching the paintings etc… maybe a shop art related or the museums shops. it has to be something art related as i am a bit knowledgeable .all my volunteering is on that field. but maybe also helping people with benefits etc.. i like helping people. even though i sometimes lose my temper like today and normally it does not happen. but when it happens….. well it is done now.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,486 Championing

    That is amazing your really putting yourself out there im very scared too tbh its getting worse I wish my life had gone different and I built a career I understand I felt like that on the bus but it passed we are only human and being overwhelmed before we go out leaves us noticing everything be kind to yourself tomorrow definitely be better 🙏

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    i am hoping for tomorrow .. i am more a member only helping setting up the place and maybe come up with some ideas …. so yes.. but it is very hard.. if you ask me i sometimes feel like shutting the blinds and the tv and going to sleep. and never leave the room. but i know that is not good idea so i try. but it is hard. also the longer it passes the harder it will get to go back to a working environment. i do not know.. but i can only hope things will get better.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    but to be honest i am willing to try my hand in any possible job in the future etc.. but it is so hard at the same time. anyway. i used to be able to read one book after another one.. now it gets harder… but i will check that book….

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    it is not getting any better… i feel awful. maybe tomorrow i will feel better.. i really hope so.

  • Albus_Scope
    Albus_Scope Posts: 10,787 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    It's good to stay flexible with ideas @Schildpad you never know what you might find out there. 😊

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,486 Championing

    When we become so overwelmed everything seems impossible reading watching tv eating the whole mind gets flooded with constant thoughts I'm really going to try to do something little everyday as I get lost in hours of fear anxiety I really have to fight this it's so hard living in constant fear I hope for us all peace of mind we deserve peace of mind b

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    i am so anxious my heart hurts.. it is going to take some time for me to forget what happened today and deal with the guilt. it is done and i can not change what what happened.

    living with a mental illness makes every day a challenge continuously having thoughts and some of them not knowing if they are real or not. i am overthinking so much. anyway i have to stop worrying about what happened today i can not change what happened only hope i would act differently if it happens again.

  • Grumpy1314
    Grumpy1314 Online Community Member Posts: 633 Empowering

    I’m going to say goodnight to everyone, I’ve been asleep the past few hours. Time for me to get some ugly sleep ❤️

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Online Community Member Posts: 547 Empowering

    night night. until tomorrow. i really hope tomorrow i will feel better…….