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  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    I am trying to skip messages related to benefits.. there is a lot of scaremongering to make people feel very scared. ... It keeps happening...if I get a letter I deal with it. But media wants us to be scared.

    I am scared about everything but I have worried too much in the past and it did not happen. It is better not to worry . And I know it is hard writing this while my heart is racing…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    I am. Cutting on it. And also lottery etc .

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    I wsnt to cut completly but I am better than before as it was very bad.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering
    edited August 2025

    I want to stop them altogether the cards that is.. Hopefully soon. . I am considering some changes for next year. I really need to find something I can do workwise.. relaying on the system is very scary And it is always the possibility of losing the benefits. So I need to try something. .retiring age is far away and not sure what will i get. but future is so uncertain…

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    @Catherine21 i am in a way volunteering … but it is only for a few hours on mondays wednesdays and fridays . i am a volunteer and member at the same time. on thursdays i am a member of another place.. so i am trying to go out and meet people. but today left me really bad. i am a very kind person but sometimes i overreact.. but i feel i am over doing it.. too much . but the feeling of the uncertain is worse. so i do not know what to do really.

  • Albus_Alumni
    Albus_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 11,373 Championing

    A few hours is still great @Schildpad so you're doing great. 😊

    Have you thought about what kind of work you'd like to do?

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    @Catherine21

    considering cutting off caffeine as well… that is another thing. maybe caffeine free stuff. i hope tomorrow i will feel better, now i regret the situation and i would probably let it go if it happens again. and do nothing but it is now too late. anyway.. i am waiting for the time to go to bed. maybe a film or two and bed time. but i completely lost my appetite.

  • WelshBlue
    WelshBlue Community Member Posts: 1,360 Championing
    edited August 2025

    @Grumpy1314 as a fellow petrol-head have you watched Junk & Disorderly, Bangers & Cash and Salvage Hunters Classic Cars … they're about the only things I watch on TV

    All informative but ever so slightly depressing. From oil cans to cars if only I'd known what the things I gave away or scrapped would be worth today

    One being the shell and running gear of a Ford Mk 3 RS 1600i … I had no room for it so gave it away. Worth upwards of £20,000 just as a non runner. Hindsight is such a wonderful thing

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    @Albus_Scope with my ptsd from my previous job i do not really want to do anything similar to that job.. it will have to be something very quiet. but i am considering to do something. i need to be diagnosed properly.. i am sure i have autism and ptsd and adhd but only diagnosed as anxiety and depression. i am finally got a referral to the anxiety clinic . i hope they accept me.. and i can try to start treatment and it works. and maybe the find out if i have something else other that anxiety and depression that i am sure i have. i think nobody will want to hire me. as i have too many issues mentally and physically but also visually. i have mentioned before i have nf1 .not many companies will accept me.. maybe one that deals with similar people. i will see.. my friend says she could not be in my situation relying on the system etc.. and i can not blame her it is so distressing. my resolution is really find something i can do. maybe part time. maybe only one day a week. or two and move to more days little by little.

    i am thinking about museums etc.. one of those where people are sitting down checking people are not touching the paintings etc… maybe a shop art related or the museums shops. it has to be something art related as i am a bit knowledgeable .all my volunteering is on that field. but maybe also helping people with benefits etc.. i like helping people. even though i sometimes lose my temper like today and normally it does not happen. but when it happens….. well it is done now.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    i am hoping for tomorrow .. i am more a member only helping setting up the place and maybe come up with some ideas …. so yes.. but it is very hard.. if you ask me i sometimes feel like shutting the blinds and the tv and going to sleep. and never leave the room. but i know that is not good idea so i try. but it is hard. also the longer it passes the harder it will get to go back to a working environment. i do not know.. but i can only hope things will get better.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    but to be honest i am willing to try my hand in any possible job in the future etc.. but it is so hard at the same time. anyway. i used to be able to read one book after another one.. now it gets harder… but i will check that book….

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    it is not getting any better… i feel awful. maybe tomorrow i will feel better.. i really hope so.

  • Albus_Alumni
    Albus_Alumni Scope alumni Posts: 11,373 Championing

    It's good to stay flexible with ideas @Schildpad you never know what you might find out there. 😊

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    i am so anxious my heart hurts.. it is going to take some time for me to forget what happened today and deal with the guilt. it is done and i can not change what what happened.

    living with a mental illness makes every day a challenge continuously having thoughts and some of them not knowing if they are real or not. i am overthinking so much. anyway i have to stop worrying about what happened today i can not change what happened only hope i would act differently if it happens again.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    night night. until tomorrow. i really hope tomorrow i will feel better…….

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    anoher message for review…. anywyay good night.. i hope tomorrow does not rain…. but will go out regardless of the weather.. need my Fridays session…

  • luvpink
    luvpink Community Member Posts: 4,963 Championing
    https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1063078#Comment_1063078

    Me too.

    I cannot concentrate on long reims of repetitive copy and paste and its dragging me right down, so I'm going to wait for official announcements to be made.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    i hope the anxiety clinic will be able to help if they accept me. i struggle to accept i have many years to live this tortuous life.. i still can not forget about the incident today. i hope it will pass.. anwyay… night..

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Community Member Posts: 4,021 Championing

    Good morning all

    2 of my cats woke me up at 4am.amd 5am rooting my neck. And washing me lol

    Think somethings bit me overnight

    Couod it be a spider bite?

    Red sore lumpy spot size of a 50p under my armpit

    I. Haf one on my thigh last week

  • xodza
    xodza Community Member Posts: 213 Empowering

    hi everyone hope your day not going too bad. I am really struggling with bad pain medication don’t seem to be helping much so try not do too much and hopefully it ease a bit

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