How is your day going?

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  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    unless i feel better i might just stay at home… i ihaving flashbacks from my incident.. and feelings of guilt, i truly hope it will pass. but also really slept so so … my medicines do not really work and are already in the highest dose except for the painkiller.. i am not sure . i am having high hopes for the future but at times i just do not want to see it. i am going to have a camomile and hope my heart settles.

  • luvpink
    luvpink Community Member Posts: 4,963 Championing
  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    thank you @Catherine21 i am laying down in bed watching tv… while playing internet at the same time. i will stay at home but tomorrow i really need to go out. i will see how i feel.. i am trying to calm down.. maybe i should go to a park and try to relax…. nature is very soothing. i have to convince myself it will be ok.

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    i really have to challenge myself to do things.. i have no confidence at all.. A nice park is always good.. even if it is a little bit of green … i am forcing a lot… that is way i try to keep busy because before i was on my own all the time. i need to keep optimistic that something good will happen and things will improve.. but my health been downhill for well over a decade now. but i have to hope my health will improve.. when i was working i was so busy working i forgot about myself. that is why my health got worse. anyway. pass is pass and that can not be recover. but the future is now and for that maybe we can do something about it . being a pessimist does not work , that is another thing i have to change. manifestation tell us to say thank you for today even if we do not know what will happen. i have been into manifesting things for a while.. it does sometimes but very frustrating when it does not. i will wait for tomorrow to run for the shops .. even if they open later.

  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 5,863 Online Community Team

    Pleased you managed to get some decent sleep @Grumpy1314. A restful evening sounds perfect! ☺️

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    i got a friend who tells me the same.. it is hard to break old habits but i have to be more optimistic. when i am positive things happen if i am not .. i have a bad day… that and be more confident.. so yes. i am trying to change habits little by little.. still have to get rid off things and change more bad habits. step by step.

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Community Member Posts: 4,026 Championing

    Not great

    My excema on my hands flaring up. Been pretty bad for 3 weeks now

    I have a steroid cream

    They are cracked, splitting and bleeding

    So sore hard to open things

    Still no cardiology appointment

    I have the chiropodist appointment on. Tues

    Ear syringe on the 12th

    Really worried about this red mark/sore/lump whatever it under my armpit very red and hurts

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 15,450 Championing

    good morning everyone

  • luvpink
    luvpink Community Member Posts: 4,963 Championing

    Lovely day here and I'm hoping it stays that way so that I can get out and enjoy it.

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    @Catherine21

    I liked reading what you wrote yesterday about negativity and being a strong person

    I struggle with so much doubt and I don't understand why I'm so horrible or what I've done wrong. I just want to be reassured that I'm a good person, but I think being told helps occasionally, but really it has to come from yourself

  • Amberpearl
    Amberpearl Community Member Posts: 4,026 Championing

    Joy bit me last night

    My hand is now infected and swollen like a, balloon 2 puncture wounds

    I've took paracetamol for the pain

    Il ring gp in the morning

    I don't fancy 8 hours in a a n e waiting room

    My anxiety can't cope

  • michael57
    michael57 Community Member Posts: 2,933 Championing

    I sure would not recommend tree hugging barefoot in a thunder and lightning storm you could end up with a nice new hair do haha

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    @Catherine21

    It's reassuring to read what you're going / have been through. Obviously horrible to know another person has similar but it helps alleviate the isolation.

    I think combined with autism and the "black/white" or "all/nothing" aspect of autism adds another complication.

    For example in my mind if I'm not a horrible person then I'm a fantastic/perfect person… and I know I'm not perfect, so I must be horrible. It sounds stupid to people who don't get the all or nothing mindset but it's how my mind often works. 😆

    Like you I'm working on it and it's a constant battle but it's worth it and makes you appreciate little things that most take for granted, I find

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    Morning. I am not great so I am not leaving home today. Yet another day......

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    @Catherine21

    It's interesting about you wouldn't do it to other people, that just shows what a nice person you are… putting others before yourself even subconsciously

    I recently wondered, some of the things I think, say and do - even physically - to myself would be considered abuse if I did them to somebody else, which doing so would never cross my mind… but for some reason I consider it OK to be emotionally, verbally & even physically abusive to myself 🤔

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    I wrote you a reply @Catherine21 but I triggered the filter 🙁 so it might pop up out of context later on, but I valued your post and have replied just so you know I didn't miss it

  • Schildpad
    Schildpad Community Member Posts: 1,023 Empowering

    @Catherine21 it is hard but we have to try.. but honestly today i have no strength. honestly/, i am scared of making false moves. i just feel more vulnerable than ever.. scared of being judged, scared of everything, scared of being hostile .etc, it is positive i am not in pain yet.. maybe later on. but i really feel like the odd one out everywhere, i just do not know what to do. i try to be positive but ….

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    @Schildpad I think you're an interesting person… you may well be the "odd" one out in most places but people often stand out for good reasons, not bad ones! 👍

  • xodza
    xodza Community Member Posts: 213 Empowering

    Good morning hope everyone not feeling too bad nice morning so far not moved much as my pain level bit high so affected my mobility still managed to keep smile on

  • 66Mustang
    66Mustang Community Member Posts: 15,452 Championing

    Hope you keep ok @xodza and don't get too bored not being able to do stuff. 👍