How is your day going?

@66Mustang life is very unfair. It is pack with mistakes and wrongdoing. I am sorry. You are not needed..you need comfort. I do write here for comfort and being understood and accepted. I feel awful but at times not even writing here helps. As they say. Good times will come at the right time. I just hope they will come to you soon. You are neither stupid. You need reassurance everything will be ok.. I have to believe there will be some closure and things will change to the way they were even if they were not ok.and do not feel sorry for looking for some sympathy. We all need it .

Anyway back home and I will remain here.. tomorrow will be another day.

You're kind @Schildpad

@66Mustang thank you. Yes I do. I always felt the odd one out in my family and out there. And maybe that is difficult .I only feel understood in some settings but it is hard to be understood.. In particular disability wise. Few people get it. I would just try to get on with life the best you can. It is good to not deal with people who do not understand you or make you feel bad and only keep those who you know you care or you feel they care for you. I have cut off wih some people in my life. But it is not easy.

I'm off to go to a group now but thanks @Schildpad it meant a lot

@66Mustang thank you.. happy to help and you are welcome…… one thing i have to learn is being optimistic and positive… i really have to. enjoy your group.. seeing people really helps as it keeps all the worries away for a while…

in order to feel accepted sometimes we have to start with ourselves.. i do not like myself. i keep making mistakes and say things i regret. even thought i keep my month shut almost all the time as i feel i am making a fool of myself. and also i have nf1 what makes me different. even if it is not too obvious it is after a few seconds.. so learning to accept myself is one thing as i hate myself. i am surviving in this jungle and trying to keep going in a world i am not feeling comfortable with. still i am taking selfies maybe because my body in general is changing so much to worse.. Anyway i will watch a couple of films and let see tomorrow. i hope weather will be ok as i have to go out.

good morning bit rain here can tell get bit colder in morning glad can stay inside hope today will be more pain free

I hope all goes well for you.

Good morning all. It's a mixed bag here for weather this morning in Brum. Bright but no blue sky. Expecting downpours throughout the day. It's still not that cold though, I haven't needed my heating on yet. We have had alot of spiders, so i think it's getting cooler.

Hope everyone has a good day.