How is your day going?

Hi Amberpearl, right I'm back with it now, and I'm so sorry about that! Firstly, I'd say I'm very sorry at how you're feeling scared and depressed about it all and it's completely understandable. I am glad that the examination and samples have proved to be normal so that's a very good starting point.

You may well be right about the medications. I've been on some new meds recently that have caused kidney failure again which is very disappointing so I've stopped them as don't really fancy continuing with organ failure but I'm then symptomatic again and I accept that.

I'm not suggesting for a second that you stop yours. It may just be that the dose needs adjusting. What I have come to learn over the last year, particularly, is that despite the side effects of some of my medications (some are intolerable for me), it's truly often the case of weighing up those side effects versus the protection they also provide to the point that you may feel comfortable, overall, with that. I personally am more 'comfortable' with protections to my heart, lungs and kidneys, all of which are problematic for me.

The fear for me is knowing that even the doctors/consultants do not always have the exact right answer all of the time. You are doing the right thing in letting them know.

Please always free to DM me if you wish to express yourself more freely. Absolutely no judgement here no matter how 'graphic' you are.

Finally, I have to say that I don't really know what Scope is about. Whoever has complained.... I mean, really …??? What on earth is wrong with 'Scrolling on' if they're not interested/offended.

Please do continue to post Amberpearl. You are perfectly entitled to express, in whatever way works for you, how you are feeling. For anyone complaining about that I challenge Scope to deal with them in whatever way they see fit. There are clearly some 'rogues', for want of a better word, on here, who've no place in an environment which claims to be inclusive. Scope??

I agree i dont understand how people are so rude to dismiss someone's struggles and fears

Morning .. I need to go out . Weather is not great but it is a long day to stay at home all day... I am as usual very anxious but it eases in the afternoon a bit.. hope you are all ok. Not too anxious or in pain or not too down....

Made my point.

Back from the dentist

I'm. Numb

Msybe is I reduce my food intake I won't need the bathroom as much and not bleed?

Ive lived in my house for 25 years and know having someone from housing association checking windows doors ect god so paranoid hes taking pictures ive painted my house bright keep thinking im going to lose my house always had that fear hes been here for ages I was talking to him and im shaking I always act weird or say something stupid now im going to be worried im im trouble or going to get evicted anything to do with my house and I get really bad scared even though hes checking 5 houses round here I try to keep grounded I also have my daughters dog and she keeps barking at him oh god im going to be waiting for weeks for a letter I hate being like this

Will try to magic some sunshine for you

Haha one finger typer I am afraid the other three tucked out the way most of the time

good morning to you hope you have a good day feeling bit cold and so dark in morning hope I will have some good relief from pain

Well I'm. Up