When we listen, people may remember their worth

If I’m honest and being transparent -

I am still finding it hard to live alone just over two years after my ex wife left me. I miss the contact, someone just saying everything is ok, helping to be a sounding board or just helping me get my voice heard on phone calls.
It’s not just my ex I’m missing, I’m missing my dog, missing having him just there checking in on me or having cuddles.

What I find debilitating living alone since last year is simply the vast silence, if it wasn’t for the tv I would feel like I had gone deaf.

I am a Cancer ♋️ by star sign, I’m very sensitive, nurturing, emotional and protective. But it’s not just my star sign that makes me partly like that, it’s also a lifetime of battling against all odds, facing down constant criticism, having obstacles put in my way and just having to constantly fight.

I can be reactive, fly off the handle, defensive, silent and just really a mental mess at times. My inability to control or regulate my emotions was 50% responsible for my ex wife leaving me.

Even sitting here, I have a heavy heart, a sad expression a distant look in my eyes. I was always asked by crisis lines or mental health workers where I used to live, what keeps you going, simple answer was always my wife and dog.

When that is taken away from you, what does it leave you with?

to be honest Ruben, I’ve had two proper relationship, partners and marriages in the space of 40 years, I can safely say never again!

Gonna stay single until I’m a cranky old man 👴 I always struggled to make friends and it was hard navigating life with my father’s side of the family. My Mums side was the one I mainly got on with and really gelled with.

Through childhood and adulthood I always isolated myself away from the world apart from going hiking, camping or other stuff with a couple of close mates.

Since my ex dumped me and I’ve been through the biggest challenge, multiple obstacles and major life changes I’m still here and surviving on my own. Learning to just take my time with every thing I do, listening to my body, my mind and just trying to find the right path.