How is your day going?

Torrential rain today, on and off, just like yesterday. Not sure if I can get Gus out before about 02:00. I think our summer is coming to an end.

Good morning.

I've had a really busy time lately out enjoying the sunshine with friends.

I had my living room/kitchen decorated and I'm pleased with the result.

It is the start of the Boardmasters festival here in Cornwall and its going to be mega busy with the tourist season in full swing.

The weather is great and we have lots of free entertainment happening with street stalls, live music etc.

I may venture out later to the bowling club.

I only live a short stroll from the town and beaches.

I hope you all manage to have as a good a day as you can.

Good Afternoon,

Quiet day to say the least, exhausted still. Decided to go for a walk up to the local Chippy for Dinner. Spending the day watching SWAT and may watch a film later before an early night.

Fed up of feeling exhausted, every time I roll over in bed I wake up. Years ago I could sleep from the minute my head hit the pillow until my alarm went off in the morning. I guess I have my mental and physical health declining since 2023 to thank for that. I have crashed again mentally and hit a brick wall. I keep asking myself what my purpose in life is, which I don’t have a clue. People would say that I am a kind and good person, but frankly I feel like I am by far one of the worse people in the world. I am questioning if I want to head to Manchester in October to watch a theatre show, but being back in the area near where I grew up may bring a whole host of challenges for my mental health. If I have to many things going off, I tend to hit overload and crash. I just keep saying things like “Just” “Why” “What’s The Point” I honestly most days want to give up fighting and just stay locked away in my flat with all the blinds shut. I am awaiting a procedure to take a tooth out, waiting for neurology for my neck alongside some recent tests. People say try to be kind to yourself, but when you can’t catch a break, you just end up hating yourself even more.

Sadly I haven’t seen the new Spiderman as yet, playing things by ear at the moment. Keeping my head down, going to take things one minute at a time. Always fighting this inner demon’s inside of myself for the last 43 years is draining. My fight or flight is always on a heightened level with my mental health is not good.

Good morning everyone. I have the plasterer coming at 10.00am to do the kitchen ceiling. Not really looking forward to that. Will be glad when it is done.

It's a chilly start but it's not raining now and I can feel it warming and brightening up slowly but surely. I'd rather have it on the cool side. Unfortunatley the high temps are back next week for a couple of days. Can't seem to get away from them lol. Onwards and upwards Lunch club for me today then a chill out afternoon.Have a great day everyone.

Struggled again with sleep, tried music to help me nod off again which worked for so long. Managed 11 hours but feel as exhausted as ever 😴 Going to recharge the old batteries, 🪫 don’t think there is a set of jumper cables big enough to revive the old batteries. Got meds being delivered today, not much else going on today. Tomorrow I have Mediquip coming to adjust the braking on my Rollator, when I lock the brakes one wheel will free wheel when pushed. Only had it since June.