Letting it out?

So hear goes I got all my teeth out in hospital, (because I had bad experience at dentist when I was a kid) so I had a couple of appointments with him just to make sure i wasn't gonna change my mind. while I was there he kept on asking me why I don't I have these to moles on my face removed aswell an il. wake up a new woman an smile again I said no but said you can remove the two of my neck then finally my friend (ex partners cousin) said go on its free why not.the scars will be one strand of a hair and gone in. 6months time well I woke up to no teeth in. and thick black stitches in place of my moles so iive got to wide scars on my face even the holes marks from the thick black stitches I went to my Drs once after telling him what happened and asked him if these scars will gone after next 3months that makes it the 6months I was told , well I knew the answer really, NO an he said omg look I'm shocked at what he's done an if it was. say his wife he would be taking her to seek medical advice, I did nothing I was so ashamed an have toucherd myself ever since that was 18yrs ago an never told anyone only kids family side so I've never made friends kept myself to myself an now here I am only top set fitted never had bottom teeth since , top set have got to big an wearing away kept in with palygrip an fixadent an I'm so ashamed because my kids have tried everything even offer to pay private then. with my mh triggers which I've lived with since. my late teens but I can't do it I blame myself for being so f,,, stupid letting my gaurd down when I should have known better an when I feel bad I just look in the mirror. an tell myself it's my own fault so this is it I've never told anyone until my hp last yr and all of you now oh an on the p2p hp an only the one dr 18yrs ago ?? so when they are asking me how my disabilitys an health problems are affecting my day to day life etc I'm getting a bit confused explaining because I don't have a time limit on my daily life because I don't have one so if I don't clean up etc for days an only if I feel ok so it's getting confusing when they ask how long it takes an how it affects me blah blahh I know I'm gonna get it wrong and this is my only chance to sort myself out an get out of here get a flot an bit of mobility coz I'm gonna end up not getting out of this ?? hole coz my daughters talking about moving out an il be stuck here alone I don't know what to do anymore ??

@Adrian_Scope thankyou Adrian & hope your good ? I started to feel human an get my silly sense of humour back I wish I started chatting on here when I 1st joined I feel sad that so many of us are lonely and we all have health problems/disability// mental health issues and I'm sure I'm not the only one who gets angry and upset having to. explain when they say what's up with you or well u need to go to Drs grrrr so we all understand each other one way or another ? Plus I've learnt a lot about myself an at the moment I look like a hard as ?? great grandma( no offence to great grandmas ) ??

@Topkitten & @Lou67 thankyou both for ur messages atm I'm feeling embarrassed an paronid I just want to be me again even for a little bit ? But hey hoo I've felt comfortable in telling you all (may b a while b4 I put my pic up incase someone knows me) lol , so maybe there's hope for me after all girls rule an boys drool ??

hiya everyone @scope the last 2 weeks has been a nite mare im running on fumes atm and need some advice an help my son has been drinking and taking coke everyday for past 3/4 weeks when his bags of clothes came here he had already been on a bender 4 10days solid he had took 30ish tablets i only got told last week , im fuming about not been told any way last nite i had to lock him in i was gonna get him sectioned  he had blood all over his face god ive never seen anyone  act that way anyway he told me he has drink drugs an gambling problems i dont no what to do now i wish i got him sactioned last nite im so scared i cant believe hes still breathing what should i do now any advice would be great right now plz










































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@cher_scope ? Thankyou for advice an help, ,update my son is. doing well an getting help now it wasn't as bad as I was being told of his ex his dad an sister all shouting an screaming at him made things worse , I kept him lock in house till he told me what was going on an opening up to me , he's now back at work an doing well ? I've got his 10yrs relationship of his clothes, work tools, etc etc piled in hall way an living room atm he had positive noived19 test so all in digs had been sent home 3 of them tested positive, so I've had him here as he has no where else to go 14 days now back working away again, I'm worried sick stressing out ,anxiety levels at boiling point worried sick I'm gonna be in more trouble having both kids home with me, I'm supposed to pay £186 council tax today if not il get court summons £70 cost I'm sat here wrapped up to save on gas till there home an back to square one living on £118 pw for house bills an food ,but they can live at grandmas for free I'm having symptoms sore throat etc this government is a joke ??