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jinnty
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Hello, I hope this post finds you all safe and well as can be. But, as I write that, in a way, it’s a total joke. To be well as can be, what the heck does that mean. It’s now getting on to half 2 in the morning, and I’m lying here, crying because I’m really really angry at my bloody body, and angry about letting it getting to me, yes I’m in “pain”, brackets, because just putting pain doesn’t cover how it is. Everyone keeps telling me to accept that I’m now disabled, through no fault of my own, so just to accept and manage it. But, how can we, when instead of having a full nights sleep, we constantly have the huge minority of sleep, awake and either, pacing, massaging, using heat pads, or like me screaming because even just typing on the iPad causes extreme pain. So, yes I apologise to everyone about the well as can be, if tonight is your horrendous night. Sorry about the rant! Best wishes and thoughts to you all
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I feel your "pain". No pun intended! Sorry to hear you had a restless night.
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I have had sleepless nights with pain from teeth mainly but this last time I had the offending tooth pulled out ASAP, within twenty four hours of it playing up. I can’t stand toothache at night and won’t tolerate it longer than I have to. It cost me £170 to have it extracted today! Mainly because I had to go private, couldn’t get a nhs dentist at least not this side of Christmas.
anyway back to the point, you have my deepest sympathy @jinnty. If only all pain could be rectified as simply as mine today.“If you think you are too small to make a difference, try sleeping with a mosquito.”
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Hi @jinnty I am so sorry to hear about your pain. It always seems worse at night because we should be asleep and the pain is stopping this. Have you spoken to your GP he could refer you to a pain clinic ? Take care.
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@leeCal have you tried orajel when you have toothache it's really good instant relief especially the double strength available at chemist
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Hi @jinnty
Thanks for reaching out to us. I always appreciate how much courage it must take to reach out. I am really sorry to hear you are struggling. We are sending you lots of care and hugs. Is there anything specific that we can do to support you? or do you simply need a virtual shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen?
Either way, we are here for you. We appreciate that some days are tougher than others and it is okay not to be okay. Though, I do strongly believe in the phrase fall down 7 times stand up 8 times. You have got this
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@L_VolunteerThank you all for all your support and care. I’m sorry, but I just needed to express my feelings. Just, I always try to be “Up “, but sometimes it just gets the better of me. Thank you all again.
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Hi @jinnty,
I'm really sorry to hear that you've been feeling a little low and frustrated recently. It's okay and completely normal to feel frustrated with life at times and when you do, it's important to listen to your emotions and not ignore them. It's great that you're so open to expressing your feelings and I would always recommend you do that
You're in the right place to rant, cry, be happy etc. We are all here to support you and listen to your problems. When you're feeling like this, it's important to look after yourself and do things for you. Are there any activities that you enjoy and that make you happy?
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thank you for your kind words. Unfortunately a lot of the things I like to do means using my hands, elbows, shoulders lol , so at the moment this is where a lot of my pain is, limbs and others. But, I will be “fine”, the buzzword a lot of people use, and will try to just keep going as long as I can before another flare up. Thank you again for reaching out to me. It does make a huge difference when you know, you won’t have people saying “it can’t be as bad as your making out”, the usual a lot of disabled people hear. But, tomorrow is another day, and I can only try to get through tonight until I see what tomorrow brings me. Take care and stay safe. -
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Hi @jinnty - there's absolutely no need to apologise, as many of us with chronic pain understand what you're going through. My last 2 nights have been like yours, at least as far as being awake at 2.30 am goes.They say that anger is one of the phases you go through in the path to acceptance, yet I rail against some of the words used. I've said before on the forum, that, as I have a genetic disorder, perhaps it's easier for me as I deteriorated somewhat gradually. Whilst I know I probably am disabled, I rarely consider myself as such, just someone who has certain conditions.....so no acceptance there. Also I feel that emotions often come up unbidden, but more so when pain levels increase. I find that I sort of cope with the 'normal' level of pain that I have, but anything extra on top of that is very difficult. This can be something else going wrong, & often any additional stress, which seems to be my worst enemy.Take care of yourself, & I hope you have a better night's sleep tonight.
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I'm sorry to hear that, chronic pain can be challenging to deal with. I have endometriosis and experience daily pain and I understand that when the pain gets unbearable, that's all you can focus on. For me, deep breathing really helps. I know it's not for everyone, but I find it allows me to escape the pain somewhat and focus on my breath. Tomorrow is another day and remember these hard days will allow you to grow into an extremely resilient and empathetic individualjinnty said:@Libby_Scope
thank you for your kind words. Unfortunately a lot of the things I like to do means using my hands, elbows, shoulders lol , so at the moment this is where a lot of my pain is, limbs and others. But, I will be “fine”, the buzzword a lot of people use, and will try to just keep going as long as I can before another flare up. Thank you again for reaching out to me. It does make a huge difference when you know, you won’t have people saying “it can’t be as bad as your making out”, the usual a lot of disabled people hear. But, tomorrow is another day, and I can only try to get through tonight until I see what tomorrow brings me. Take care and stay safe.
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I'm in agreement, I 'think,' with Libby, tho I tend to say concentrate on breathing correctly, which we as adults seem to have forgotten to do, rather than necessarily deep breathing. I used to teach this diaphragmatic, or abdominal breathing as a physio student to help my patients relax, &/or combat pain. Please see: https://www.guysandstthomas.nhs.uk/resources/patient-information/therapies/abdominal-breathing.pdf You don't have to have a pillow under your knees, just find a comfortable position. This 'usually' helps me too, & is worth practising.
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Thanks for the link @chiariedschiarieds said:I'm in agreement, I 'think,' with Libby, tho I tend to say concentrate on breathing correctly, which we as adults seem to have forgotten to do, rather than necessarily deep breathing. I used to teach this diaphragmatic, or abdominal breathing as a physio student to help my patients relax, &/or combat pain. Please see: https://www.guysandstthomas.nhs.uk/resources/patient-information/therapies/abdominal-breathing.pdf You don't have to have a pillow under your knees, just find a comfortable position. This 'usually' helps me too, & is worth practising. this is something that I'm definitely working on, as I realise I haven't been breathing 'properly' for a long time! Have you ever engaged in breathwork practices? I'm trying to engage in more of them, as they are supposedly meant to have a positive impact on the nervous system, which might then, have a positive impact on my PoTs. Online Community Information Coordinator
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Hi @Libby_Scope - no, I've only ever used diaphragmatic breathing. LeeCal has posted breathing used in meditation, which I'm sure also helps many, but I feel concentrating on counting the number of breaths in/out may be distracting; similarly 'deep breathing,' as I feel breathing correctly is more helpful. If you watch a baby breathe, you will see they do this automatically, which is why I say it's something adults have forgotten.Diaphragmatic breathing has been shown to induce relaxation, help with anxiety, & reduce stress, & something I also used at the beginning & end of 'back' classes. As to PoTS, I wouldn't claim it could possibly help with that. Speaking personally, it doesn't help my orthostatic hypotension, which, depending which way you look, could be due to Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, or also the dysautonomia I have due to EDS in my case being associated with Chiari 1 Malformation. In other words, PoTS has many causes, & even the EDS specialists can disagree on them; I disagreed with one in particular that said Chiari 1 Malformation was not associated with Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder (HSD) as it's now known, nor EDS some years ago (he wouldn't even mention dysautonomia, tho I had, rather poor vasoconstriction in the lower limbs when upright in those with EDS). As dysautonomia is when your autonomic nervous system (over which you have no control) isn't working properly, then no, any kind of breathwork can't change this.Again, I would suggest you to listen to Dr. Anne Maitland, who speaks at both EDS & Chiari 1 Malformation conferences in the USA about MCAS, PoTS & orthostatic intolerance (mainly in those with a connective tissue disorder). Have just watched this again; if nothing else, listen from 13mins 30 secs. :
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I have Fibromyalgia, nerve damage from failed back surgery and am now waiting for a new hip. I get your anger and wish I had a miracle cure for you but all I can offer is support and understanding and empathy. 💜🤗
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Support, empathy, and understanding are always welcome here @Deecov It's good to have you with us! I hope that you don't have to wait too long for your new hip. Online Community Coordinator, she/her
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How do people manage their emotions especially when you’re upset?
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Great question @Molliepw96
For me, I think it's important to take a few seconds to consider the situation AND WHY it has upset me. Taking a few deep breaths too can help to calm you down and prevent you from perhaps saying something you otherwise wouldn't.
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I struggle to express my emotions and then end up crying
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Me too, Always tears and then I can hear my mothers head in my voice saying keep that up and I’ll give you something to cry for. As an adult of course I can look back and think but she never did so it was an empty threat but the inner child is still very frightened
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