Mental Health - Struggling

I finished my emails, even the person I was speaking to said the medical centre isn't exactly helping, she has also said she can try opening a task to refer me to a mental health service but she couldn't assure me that I wouldn't be referred to the one that I was referred to before which was poor. The other issue is, I don't want treatment, I've been there, done that and none of what I tried helped at all, I just want to be diagnosed so I can better understand myself and so the GP's actually listen because atm I feel that I'm not being taken seriously.

I may also need to report the medical centre to ICB again if when my son calls tomorrow, they do nothing to help because I'm not going to keep chasing them around, it's been 2 years and 8 months since I started trying to address issues and such with them and my son has requested reasonable adjustments on my behalf which he's had no real response to, plus certain things that I addressed in my complaint are still occurring.

My mental health is never great and the staff here are making it worse along with my physical health conditions.

I knew what you meant :)

It is very draining and it's constantly in my brain, it's annoying.

My son is going to try and speak to someone tomorrow about it all, I doubt he'll get anywhere which means I'll then contact ICB and CQC. It's on them not me.

So my son actually spoke to the practice manager, apparently the complaint and medical record concerns have been dumped onto her even though this other manager was meant to be dealing with it. Basically this started in 2022, the practice manager then didn't do her job properly and address the various issues, she then left the practice and the issues were passed onto the next practice manager, who took almost a year to contact me properly to talk about the issues.. she then disappeared before everything was addressed, so then the issues got dumped onto some random manager who was going on like she would sort it all out blah blah blah, 8 months later nothing, my son went in today because it's ridiculous to get through via phone and the practice manager just happened to be on the desk, she he spoke to her about an email he sent and the complaint/medical record concerns. She asked him to resend the email with the reasonable adjustments as she never received it and she said she would deal with the complaint and such when she comes back on the 05/11. She understood why it would be impacting my health and even said herself that 2 years and 8 months was a bit long.

She said she'd cleared her backlog from the reception or something so should be good to address things when she's back.

We'll see what happens.

@vikki66 Thanks for being one of the few people who has bothered to respond and try and understand how certain things might be bothering me or cause my mental health to become worse.

I find it difficult to post on social media, forums and such and only really bother with my son and on occasions my mum off the internet.

Thank you @Nightcity I appreciate the support :)

I've had and asked for help, I asked for a diagnosis a couple of years ago but the person seemed more fixated on treatment that I'd tried and hadn't helped rather than diagnosing unfortunately. I've been trying for years to get the help that I need for both my mental and physical health but unfortunately it's like banging your head off a brick wall.

@Meredithshep I've had issues since I was a child and when I gave birth to my son in 1993 it seemed to flare it all up and make it worse, from there I was diagnosed with post natal depression, tried meds, got nowhere, in fact the help back then was quite poor, so my depression was left and left and so was my anxiety, then my dad passed away in 2008 which really messed me up, I tried 26 sessions of counselling in 2010 (along with a shed load of different meds), the counselling didn't help, it made my anxiety worse, then 2 years later I was referred to a psychiatrist who advised me to stop taking medication, diagnosed me with agoraphobia, anxiety and depression, complex PTSD wasn't really spoken about, neither were the other conditions that I think I have. I was then referred for CBT, did that and the therapist was horrific, won't go into it as it makes me angry, I will say that he suggested I go cold turkey off my meds.. then he discharged me because he moved and I couldn't get to where he moved to which was a relief honestly, then I referred myself for CBT, that didn't go great either. I also tried a working through worry group, relaxation classes which agitated me more than anything, self help lit, and just recently I had emotional email support. I have found nothing at all helpful.