Autism/Depression

anytime @Strawberry1 and thank you for your kind words and support ❤️ it’s just unbearably hard living in this world when I care so much and I just keep attracting horrible selfish ppl that keep hurting me. I just want to feel wanted and cared about, I wana feel like i belong somewhere, I wana feel included in life! It’s like I’m watching everyone else just living their lives, while im just stuck on the side lines stuck in my head, feeling deeply hurt and always being left out, thinking how much I am fed up with constantly being treated like a doormat. These thoughts consume me my whole life.

@eeL you worded that perfectly it’s exactly how I feel, I certainly don’t want to be like those awful ppl, I actually feel good wen I do something kind I genuinely like being a nice person n I hate seeing someone suffering I have to help, I just got to stop giving too much of myself to ppl, and completely avoid narcissists. I am genuinely happier wen I just keep myself to myself, I don’t feel so emotionally drained but anytime I do cut ppl off and try to get some peace eventually certain ppl will draw me back in and I think their the best friend ever and I just forget all nasty the things they done to me, all the stress and sleepless nights they caused me! It just goes round in circles

This damn government and dwp makes life more unhappy. Its not just having to deal with these conditions I got. But making us mentally stressed as well.

That's ok, take care

@eeL thank you for your kind words ❤️ yeah I always get taken the mikey out of, it’s like ppl enjoy winding me up, I’ve had ppl bullying me my whole life, even family and friends, I have just always been an easy target! Your boss sounds like a sociopath, evil man! World is full of ppl like that! They get a thrill out of making ppl miserable! My son’s dad is just like that he enjoys causing chaos and disruption, he loves making ppl suffer! Until they completely break! He has to have full power and control over women.