Autism/Depression

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/944740#Comment_944740

Of course honestly don't take it to heart god eel when I first joined I was like bull in China shop disagreed with people I was rude you been polite respectful kind it's hard because I know what it feels like you beat yourself up no reason to do that I didn't relize how important this group was ro me until I left and I believe you get great comfort from it no one is thinking anything bad you know tomorrow another day you won't feel like this let's carry on supporting each other xx we'd really miss you like we miss nightcity everyone becomes important to you

Catherine21

I hope summerlove OK too

Strawberry1

Do any of you here have the trait where you get upset easily at all ? . Sorry if this is a wrong question .

Bluebell21

I think sometimes we try so hard to say the right thing and fit in, when really all we want to be is ourselves. Then when we say the wrong thing it can be devasting because we have tried so hard. This is when it can be upsetting @Strawberry1 I also think does it really matter what others think because at the end of the day no one is perfect.

Kali85

I am really emotional, things hurt me deeply, I cry just if I see someone else crying. I feel like I am constantly trying so ridiculously hard to fit in that I end up exhausting myself, anytime I have social interactions with people afterwards I need time alone in the quiet coz I feel so drained

Kali85

I feel like I don’t actually know how to be myself, it feels like I am always playing a role, whenever I am meeting with friends or family I am whatever person that friend needs me to be at that time, so I am very confused about who exactly I am as I am a different person for different situations or different ppl

Albus_Scope

That's a very common way to feel @Kali85 I put it down to having to mask for so long, it feels like you've lost who you really are? I've been practicing NOT masking around people, I'm just unapologetically me and I'm slowly working out who I am again.

Strawberry1

You sound so much like me @Kali85 . I don't feel as alone by talking here. I empathise with you and my heart goes out to you . I am so very grateful for the conversations.

Strawberry1

I play the role too @Kali85 . I just be what I think people expect me to be . @Albus_Scope your right it is masking and I've done alot of that throughout life . There's been odd occasions when I didn't mask and before I know it those people avoid me . Hope it was ok to pop this post here . My adhd is partly an interrupting problem. Please excuse me .

Bluebell21

I think that is why the forum can be so special. Members can relate to each other without expectations and also no on knows who you are. @Kali85 and @Strawberry1

You are all lovely, kind, caring people please try and be yourselves.

Take care.

Albus_Scope

Oh not a worry at all @Strawberry1 there's no interrupting here, so please dont think you are!

As Bluebell says, just be yourselves, you're all fab.

Strawberry1

Cheers @Albus_Scope . Thank you too @Bluebell21

Bluebell21

I am glad to see that @eeL has not deleted her account and has decided to just have a break.

I do not think she knows how much she has helped and supported other members, or how much we really appreciate her.

Please know we will still be here waiting for you when you decide to return.

Take care.

Rachel_Scope

Hi everyone, how are we all feeling today? Hope you're all managing to stay warm 😊

Andi66

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/945183#Comment_945183

Had no heating on for a couple of days, apart from one hour. Only because my chest hurts with copd.

Rachel_Scope

Sorry your chest is hurting @Andi66. Do you have blankets or a hot water bottle to help keep you warm?

Andi66

Yes I have thanks, wrapped up in layers

Bluebell21

I am sorry your chest has been hurting @Andi66 please stay as warm as you can.

Take care.

Andi66

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/945330#Comment_945330

Thank you I will, the weather effects my lungs

WhatThe

Bluebell, I'm pretty sure it takes a few days for an account to be deleted.

I also don't want eel to leave the forum.

I'm surprised by some of Albus' comments and they would have upset me even more. A bit like asking women to stop complaining about misogyny and asking black people to stop complaining about racism…

We also can't make NT's understand anything! But we do need to be able to explore our condition and make connections here without worrying about NT's sensitivities 🙄 far too many autistic women have left the forum recently.

eel, I understand you so please count me in 😍 and please do stay 💜