Autism/Depression

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/938222#Comment_938222

Yes I spoke to doctor recently and he gave others so take 8 at night I take at 4 o'clock sleep about 10ish then wake up early hours

Catherine21

I'm the same being an empath attracts these types of people I was always doing things for people at the jump of a hat I went therapy for 18 months taught me boundaries I was thinking could it be that easy at first was impossible to say NO I'm tired or no I don't feel like coming out butas months went on I started putting boundaries in especially with one so called friend who really took advantage of my nature when I started saying no our friendship ended and I was personally relived that was seven years ago when you been the person who's always helped cared and genuinely feel people pain its draining now I always put my feelings first I totally understand everything you've said

Kali85

Sorry to hear that @Strawberry1 it’s hard when our kids grow up, perfectly normal to feel sad by it though. That’s exactly how I feel like everyone turns their back on me eventually, everyone always leaves me.

Strawberry1

Thank you so much for your support @Kali85 . It's not you though I think other people are set in their ways and don't want to understand us . They don't have the empathy. They are so ignorant of our ways 🙄. I wish you wasn't experiencing this . I know what I've said about my daughter but I think the more people push me away the more I think I would be happy living on my own. Sending gentle hugs your way. You are doing absolutely fine in my eyes . It's others loss for not being understanding.

Kali85

Yeah I done dialectical behaviour therapy that taught us to say no and set boundaries, as I could never say no to ppl and would be running around after everyone. I have had to cut off so many relationships with cousins and friends, because they were just constantly draining me always wanting things, then they would always leave me out of plans, like girls night etc, which really hurt my feelings everytime as I hate being left out, my whole life I feel completely left out. It’s like I make sooo much effort with these relationships but I don’t feel included like my relationship is just all one sided.

Strawberry1

I am truly sorry to hear what's occurred @Kali85 , I definitely empathise with you on this . No one deserves this treatment. Some people are horrible/ selfish and very self centred. I know from life experiences I just don't fit in anywhere. I really wish things were better for you 😔. Sending a few more gentle hugs.

Strawberry1

Nice we can post here

Kali85

anytime @Strawberry1 and thank you for your kind words and support ❤️ it’s just unbearably hard living in this world when I care so much and I just keep attracting horrible selfish ppl that keep hurting me. I just want to feel wanted and cared about, I wana feel like i belong somewhere, I wana feel included in life! It’s like I’m watching everyone else just living their lives, while im just stuck on the side lines stuck in my head, feeling deeply hurt and always being left out, thinking how much I am fed up with constantly being treated like a doormat. These thoughts consume me my whole life.

Strawberry1

So sorry @Kali85 😞.

Strawberry1

I need a bit of time out I feel a bit emotional. Sorry. It's nothing to do with the conversations it's just how I get from time to time . This time of year doesn't help me . Please take care of yourselves everyone 💜. Chat another time. At least we have here to chat which is a bonus.

Strawberry1

Just please please please take care of yourselves everyone and remember to be kind to yourselves too 💜. Thank you for the chats I just need a bit of time out . Thanks

Kali85

@eeL you worded that perfectly it’s exactly how I feel, I certainly don’t want to be like those awful ppl, I actually feel good wen I do something kind I genuinely like being a nice person n I hate seeing someone suffering I have to help, I just got to stop giving too much of myself to ppl, and completely avoid narcissists. I am genuinely happier wen I just keep myself to myself, I don’t feel so emotionally drained but anytime I do cut ppl off and try to get some peace eventually certain ppl will draw me back in and I think their the best friend ever and I just forget all nasty the things they done to me, all the stress and sleepless nights they caused me! It just goes round in circles

Andi66

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/943575#Comment_943575

Don't give up, I went through a awful time with my daughter who has bpd and autism. But last year she moved back in and we both getting on. Has ups and downs, but we much better

Andi66

This damn government and dwp makes life more unhappy. Its not just having to deal with these conditions I got. But making us mentally stressed as well.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/943663#Comment_943663

I had same when daughter came back from uni with a boyfriend who stayed most weekends she was a different person really rude at times we was really butting heads but it smoothed itself out and slowly we started talking about what was triggering us both and when she brought her own flat and left I cried for months they become in thier little bubbles mine did with her boyfriend

Bluebell21

Deleted. Sorry posted on wrong thread.

Strawberry1

Thank you @Andi66 . I appreciate the support. Thank you 😊

Andi66

That's ok, take care

Strawberry1

You take care too @Andi66 .

Kali85

@eeL thank you for your kind words ❤️ yeah I always get taken the mikey out of, it’s like ppl enjoy winding me up, I’ve had ppl bullying me my whole life, even family and friends, I have just always been an easy target! Your boss sounds like a sociopath, evil man! World is full of ppl like that! They get a thrill out of making ppl miserable! My son’s dad is just like that he enjoys causing chaos and disruption, he loves making ppl suffer! Until they completely break! He has to have full power and control over women.