Autism/Depression

Strawberry1

Sorry @Albus_Scope , if I have done a wrong thing here. I would never wish to cause anyone any problems. I apologise unreservedly.

Albus_Scope

Oh don't worry at all @Strawberry1 you've done nothing wrong. I hope you're managing to stay toasty warm today. 😊

Strawberry1

Ok 👍 @Albus_Scope . Im wearing a few layers and my wooly pom pom hat too . Take care

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/944724#Comment_944724

No don't go it's ok your valuable on here it's hard when you think you offended people you haven't when I got told at first my god I went on rampage writing bad reviews the lot don't go this group is good for you xx

Albus_Scope

I'm so sorry to hear that @eeL I totally get what you mean, it does feel like we're square pegs in a world designed for round holes. But we shouldn't let our past experiences cloud how we move forward in life, easier said than done I know. Life isn't easy for the neurodivergent, but we need to learn to work with others to make others see our struggles.

I do hope you reconsider leaving, as your insight if often very valuable for others.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/944735#Comment_944735

Thankyou strawberry yes eel pls don't leave you will miss the group when I did first time I really missed the group

Strawberry1

Don't leave @eeL Please.

Albus_Scope

Hey @eeL I've just seen your email. I think it'd be a real shame if you left, I know you mean a lot to many members of the community and I love our interactions. Maybe keep your account active? That way if you want to drop in to say hi, you'll be all set to go. 😊

Kali85

please don’t leave @eeL yiu were speaking your truth and your words helped me so much. It was me that was mainly to blame for all the comments, I apologise for that.

Kali85

This group has been a real eye opener for me , as I went through my whole life feeling like an alien as I have always never fit in nowhere. I am a very observant person so through my life I notice ppls mannerisms, behaviour and my interactions with them and I think of how I am etc and I see clearly from a very young age that I am completely different to them. So it’s nice knowing I am not alone in the world as I genuinely thought there was something really wrong with just me, so I am very grateful to be a part of this group, it’s helped me in so many ways.

Strawberry1

This group is really good @Kali85 it really is . I'm very grateful for this group. I feel exactly the way you feel. I hope it was ok to post back 😔 . I know I feel different from everyone else always have done.

Strawberry1

@eeL , we don't want you to leave.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/944740#Comment_944740

Of course honestly don't take it to heart god eel when I first joined I was like bull in China shop disagreed with people I was rude you been polite respectful kind it's hard because I know what it feels like you beat yourself up no reason to do that I didn't relize how important this group was ro me until I left and I believe you get great comfort from it no one is thinking anything bad you know tomorrow another day you won't feel like this let's carry on supporting each other xx we'd really miss you like we miss nightcity everyone becomes important to you

Catherine21

I hope summerlove OK too

Strawberry1

Do any of you here have the trait where you get upset easily at all ? . Sorry if this is a wrong question .

Kali85

I am really emotional, things hurt me deeply, I cry just if I see someone else crying. I feel like I am constantly trying so ridiculously hard to fit in that I end up exhausting myself, anytime I have social interactions with people afterwards I need time alone in the quiet coz I feel so drained

Kali85

I feel like I don’t actually know how to be myself, it feels like I am always playing a role, whenever I am meeting with friends or family I am whatever person that friend needs me to be at that time, so I am very confused about who exactly I am as I am a different person for different situations or different ppl

Albus_Scope

That's a very common way to feel @Kali85 I put it down to having to mask for so long, it feels like you've lost who you really are? I've been practicing NOT masking around people, I'm just unapologetically me and I'm slowly working out who I am again.

Strawberry1

You sound so much like me @Kali85 . I don't feel as alone by talking here. I empathise with you and my heart goes out to you . I am so very grateful for the conversations.

Strawberry1

I play the role too @Kali85 . I just be what I think people expect me to be . @Albus_Scope your right it is masking and I've done alot of that throughout life . There's been odd occasions when I didn't mask and before I know it those people avoid me . Hope it was ok to pop this post here . My adhd is partly an interrupting problem. Please excuse me .