How is your day going?

I've been ready for bed since 3 o'clock @Amberpearl,I'm aching from head to toe.

@Teigr I hope you wake up feeling a bit better. I hope everyone else gets some sleep.

@Katiedimelow20 it's hard sometimes with family. I struggle with my mum trying to do to much, seems mad I'm worried about that, but it can be quite controlling. I feel stressed out when my mum is coming, then put my dad into the picture im even worse.

Me and my only sister who passed away just turned 38, had a traumatic childhood. My sister was in need of more help than me, so she was her main focus of attention, she had struggled with the help too. Then my nan was her focus until she passed away a few years back so now it's my turn.

Like you I try to please her but with my challenges it's not easy. I think that once she had finally accepted, me and my sister had grown up feeling so affected from abuse that we suffered, her way dealing with it, was by her helping us, her way of making it up to us.

When my sister died, I lost the one person who totally got it, someone I could talk to as she went through the same as me.

It sounds like you are doing your best,. You accept who you are that's important for you. Some families hide problems in a closet, and don't like to admit to anything being wrong. Keep yourself well and get support from people who understand you, be it professionals or good friends.

One day she may offer you the underlying that you want until then talk to others who do understand. Sometimes saying it outloud is weight of your shoulders.

I hope you feel better in yourself soon, anxiety is real, don't be put off when others don't understand how debilitating it can feel.

Good morning all

Absolutely chuckin it down

Grey, wet and dull here i , feel like climbing back into bed

It's raining and I'm cold

It's still torrential rain

Miserable morning

Very fed up today.

Its so cold and dull here.

I didn't sleep last night and my anxiety has been really bad lately.

I seem to be in a constant state of high alert worrying about the potential benefit changes and all household bills going up in April.

Each time I go to a supermarket everything is going up in price.

I am constantly worrying and its making my health issues and anxiety worse.

I live in a holiday resort and I have agoraphobia.

Soon the tourist season will start and then thousands of random people descend upon us.

It really is most awful and I'm dreading it.

Consequently I cannot enjoy the place I live during the warmer months as I cannot face the crowds of people and I feel so lonely being stuck at home alone.

@Amberpearl

I think a lot of have similar issues.

I am constantly worrying day and night. X

@Katiedimelow20 have you been able to see a doctor? Most practices now have wellbeing clinics that they can refer you to. They can help with mental health and I'm sure your anxiety and what does sound like panic attacks. I have panic attacks and agoraphobic spells, after my second child was born i needed help to leave the house, i had help from mind, i had a one to one carer she really helped me, im not sure if mind still offer this help, but they may be able to sign post you to other organisations. Ive left my home twice since last year, to meet friends at McDonald's and to go to my granddaughters 1st birthday.. keep on talking about it, don't worry what other people think.

@luvpink and @Amberpearl i think alot of us are feeling scared about these changes to benefits, this government has scared the life out of the vulnerable people in society. When it comes to it I hope people can stand up against their unjustified changes, just like the farmers are doing today, they have parked tractors in a very long line, starting from parliament, protestesting the inheritance tax.