Autism/Depression

Kali85

thank you @Catherine21 I could understand your writing perfectly, my brain also goes ten to the dozen, I sometimes struggle to explain what I mean, as my brains so overwhelmed, overloaded, and intense, thoughts racing so fast. it’s hard to express such raw emotions with words, so I struggle to express exactly what I really mean, words don’t justify exactly how I feel.
I cannot bare to see other ppl suffering, I was always the shoulder they cried on and I would just drop everything to be there for them, comforting them, listening to every word with compassion and offering advice, they would just use me for hard times, and favours then they go straight back to hanging out with mutual friends of ours and I don’t understand why Im not included they basically ghost me. Until they need me for something like a favour or shoulder to cry on or just bcoz their fed up of a certain friend so they come to me to moan etc then go straight back to hanging with them and leaving me out, ppl have been doing this same **** to me my whole life, I get so angry with myself for keep allowing ppl to keep treating me like this, makes me feel weak and pathetic, then the cycle of hating myself continues. I’ve learned not to even try talk about my problems, because it really hurts wen u realise same ppl that I care so deeply for, just do not care about me at all, in the past anytime I’ve tried to talk about myself I get dismissed, they change the subject, then they avoid and ghost me until they want something off me, it’s like I’m so scared of losing them so I struggle alone, I bottle everything up and I try to just be a good friend.
When I did dialectical behaviour therapy they taught us self care, we had to think of nice things to do for just ourselves, I chose bubble baths, it’s literally my safe place to go, when I’m really struggling ❤️

durhamjaide2001

good evening everyone @Strawberry1 how is your stomach?

Strawberry1

Hello @durhamjaide2001 , my stomach seems to be OK at the moment thank you. How are you ?

durhamjaide2001

I am good thank you

Strawberry1

Glad you are ok @durhamjaide2001 . That's good to hear.

Strawberry1

I hope you have had a reasonable day today @durhamjaide2001 .

durhamjaide2001

i have had a reasonable day today @Strawberry1I hope you did too

Strawberry1

Glad you have had a reasonable day today @durhamjaide2001 . I made Sunday dinner today. I like my Sunday dinner Sunday isn't the same for me without Sunday dinner. Hoping to watch some TV later. I hope you have a reasonable evening. Thank you for your kindness

Catherine21

Oh me too ! I've had upto 5 in a day all this friendship and relationships are hard I didn't know I had these issues I blamed myself for everything in daily life it's like walking on eggshells feeling peoples emotions noticing body language tones in people's voice ! So so draining I think how did I ever make it to this age ! I suppose we have to look deep and relize we do bring alot to the table we are good people in a cruel cruel world it doesn't change us we can't bend to be unkind uncaring like a percentage of the population and it sucks i remember those feelings all to well and breaks my heart tor other people to go through I had to isolate for 13 years now I wouldn't recommend because your in that bubble no interference no people no explanations im calm as i can be people trigger me so bad but when that bubble burst your like a child again i should have started therapy when I was younger joined groups tried to gather some strenght I don't even know you and I know your a beautiful soul with a beautiful heart if only you could see the beauty it's very hard I know why do we punish ourselves for people who at times wouldn't give us a second thought that's just rude on thier behalf ok isolating myself have probley helped me but with age I definitely don't put up with what I used too and the people around you might not always be around I used to fear losing people but such a great saying I used to fear losing people but now I fear losing myself xx a

Kali85

I do exact same thing, it’s like I can feel emotions in the air, I pick up on body language and voice tone, I even notice wen ppl act differently, like I’ve picked up on their usual habits, behaviour so wen they do something different to their usual ways I pick up on that too. Constantly walking on egg shells as ppl can turn nasty on me or abandon me, feels like I’m constantly on edge waiting for something bad to happen. You also have a beautiful heart, replying to me with kind words and offering your advice, sharing your life experiences, extremely selfless and kind thing of you to do. it’s nice to know their are other kind beautiful souls in this cruel world. Thank you ❤️

Strawberry1

Good night @Kali85 and @Catherine21

Strawberry1

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Strawberry1

For everyone who is neurodivergent

Amaya_Ringo

I think we've all suffered a good deal of harm from the "autistic/ND people don't feel empathy/have emotions" trope, when in fact we do, and often to an amplified degree. We just tend to struggle with managing, processing and expressing them in a way that the world deems appropriate.

It doesn't help that there are a few novels out there aimed at young people which talk about ND people being 'taught empathy' by non-divergent folks, and that a couple of them have received awards…

Strawberry1

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Strawberry1

Please take care of yourselves everyone 💜

Nightcity

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Strawberry1

Sending kind blessings to each and every single one of you here 🙏

Strawberry1

Please please please take care of yourselves everyone here 🙏

Kali85

sending kind blessings back to you @Strawberry1 and to all the other lovely people on here too ❤️