In hospital and not for mental health this time

chiarieds

That is absolutely great news @cupcake88 - I did hope you'd soon be back to the 'new' you. You really are doing incredibly well, & I'm so pleased to hear it. Love, xx

cupcake88

hi every one just heading into work now . I start early today at 7am I hope I’m working with the older children today . I work in different rooms because I’m casual staff . Casual staff suits me better so I can choose my own shifts so much better . I hope I don’t fit or have a panick attack today .

The only problem is this new medication has given me side effects of bad back and legs it’s so painful to move about that’s why I’m hope I’m with the older children today because I don’t think I can be picking up babies all day .

I bumped into a old friend from hospital yesterday from mental health hospital she’s still really poorly and it just triggered me the things she was saying but it didn’t put me back I just told her to have faith and things will get better .

I’m far from being well but I’m trying my best to battle through each day and really trying even tho it’s so hard .

chiarieds

Hope you enjoy your day with some older children. You're coping incredibly well, xx

cupcake88

hi I had a good day yesterday but struggled towards the end I was working with the much older children so it was a lot easy enough to hide my panic . With the babies it’s hard to hide anxiety and panic because they require your attention constantly. I wonder where I’ll be today .

I work for a agency that supplies staff to a small chain of nurseries so each week could be a different nursery and each day it’s different rooms you don’t get a set room when your agency staff .

Next week I’m in a different nursery to this one so I hope there nice like this nursery is .

I find that when your new and that your not part of the team they sort of treat you differently . I really like this branch I hope to work here again soon . But there seems to be plenty of work at this nursery chain .

My seizures seem to be under control since my new meds it’s just the side effects I have to deal with that are hard but I’ll battle threw them .

chiarieds

I'm so pleased you had a good day yesterday @cupcake88 - it's great your seizures are under control, tho you're having to contend with some side effects. I wonder if they'll decrease as you get used to your new meds?

I hope you have another good day today, & that you find other nurseries as good as this one.

My eldest granddaughter really likes the one she works in, which must make such a difference.

It's lovely as ever to hear your news & how well you're coping. Love, xx

steviepoolman

Hope you get sorted. Best wishes x

Albus_Scope

It's great to hear things are on the up @cupcake88 :)

cupcake88

aww cool what ages does your grand daughter work with ? I was with the older children again yesterday which was much better for me I’m at a different nursery next week same company but different nursery I hope I get on well there . You can’t go wrong really as long as you’re interacting with the children . The side effects are prob gonna get worst as the medication is increased .

I might go to the Xmas markets today which is some thing I haven’t done in years because of the crowds but I’m feeling like I can face them today . I might ask my support worker to come along with me she’s coming to see me tomorrow to take me shopping .

My seizures seem to be under control now which is so good I’m glad the medication has been started and that it’s working .

Rachel_Scope

So happy to hear that you're working in nurseries 😊 I've worked in a nursery and primary school and it depends on how well behaved they are as to what age group I prefer! I hope you enjoy being at the other nursery next week.

Going to the Christmas markets is a great idea. Make sure you wrap up warm, it's so cold today.

chiarieds

Hi @cupcake88 - my granddaughter looks after the younger children & babies & loves it.

It seems you're doing so well looking after older children & enjoying it too.

Oh, I never thought about your seizures meds being increased, but hopefully you'll remain seizure free at a relatively low dosage.

It's great to read about your increasing confidence; I'm proud of you my friend, xx

cupcake88

I can’t remember when I joined scope I think it was 4 years ago and I think from then till now I have come a long way if you all remember me when I was at my worst in and out of hospital on and off of section not taking my meds I was in a bad shape . I don’t think I’m well but I’m learning to accept my illnesses if that makes sense I know why I’m like this and I think I know what to do to get better I just take one day at a time .

I didn’t go to the markets today because it was busy I heard and I didn’t feel up for long ques today . I have started a diary for my mental health as well as my seizure diary because when you’re having a bad day you forget all your good days .

yes I’m really enjoying working in a nursery I guess I’m doing ok I haven’t had any complaints yet from the manager or the agency and I guess if I had done some thing wrong they would of told me it requested I didn’t come back but I don’t think you can go wrong really . My job is to interact with the children and help with jobs like if I see cleaning that needs doing I just do it . I try my best to help where I can I don’t have to deal with paper work or speaking to the parents I don’t have to do nappies either so that’s good . I think it helps that I don’t have to do too many things the stress isn’t there so much .

It’s nice that you know some one who does the same job and that you used to work with children it is a rewarding job .

cupcake88

hi every one im having a terrible day today full of panic .

chiarieds

Oh @cupcake88 - remember you were doing so well, & this will pass again.

Yes, you've been here 4 years, & myself a little longer. I'm so pleased to have got to know you, & that you have kept in touch with us all through good & bad.

As you say, all you, & many of us can do, is get through each day when things are difficult.

I used to work with babies & young children, & it's so lovely when you can do something you enjoy. Look forward to when you'll be working with some children again tomorrow, as it seems like you were in your element. You now do have things to look forward to, which must have been difficult in the past.

You can do this, & I'm sending some hugs to surround you this evening, xx

Rosie_Scope

Thinking of you @cupcake88, I hope today is a better day for you 💜

cupcake88

hi every one I had a cry and brushed my self off and I’m trying to get threw to the next day . I’m working tomorrow I’m so sort of dreading it really it’s a new nursery this week not been there before . I’m just worried in case I fit or have a panic attack and start crying .

I’m so greatful to all of you for all your support means so much to me really does . Wish me luck for tomorrow . I have some tidying up to do this evening then hubby is taking me out for a nice meal which will be good I managed to do a Tesco shop earlier got all my bits and bobs .

Yes working with children is a great job I especially like the agency work it’s really good because I don’t have to deal with paper work or parents which is good .

I hope I’m not with the babies tomorrow because my back is really bad and my concentration isn’t great so I hope I’m with the older children .

Bluebell21

Enjoy your meal @cupcake88 Good luck for tomorrow. Take care.

Rosie_Scope

Best of luck tomorrow @cupcake88, I hope it goes well and you get to be with the older children. Toddlers always make me laugh, I used to love being around them when we had foster kids in the house 😁

Have a lovely meal tonight too! Do you know what you'll be having?

chiarieds

Have a lovely meal out with your husband @cupcake88 - I'm sure you'll both enjoy it.

You seem a natural with children, so they will enjoy being with you too. You will be fine, & sometimes it's OK not to be fine, but I have every confidence in you, xx

cupcake88

hi every one I need some urgent advice I have only been with the agency two weeks and have let them down twice due to appointments. The side effects of my medication are killing me im in so much pain I don’t think I could pick any one up and I’m with the babies again tomorrow I Duno what to do because if I call in sick there prob sack me .

chiarieds

Hi @cupcake88 - you haven't let the agency down; people have appointments they absolutely need to attend to look after their health.

I'm so dreadfully sorry you're in so much pain due to your new meds. Can you let the agency know, or the nursery you're at now, how difficult it would be for you working with babies again tomorrow?

Even if you can't contact them until you go in tomorrow, just explain. If you can't help out with the babies tomorrow, but feel you could help the older children, please just let them know. This would show your continuing commitment to helping & hopefully allow you to say how you're having to cope with so much pain, xx