Our friend and colleague Albus (Upsetting content)

MadMilan2019

He was great benefits advisor, and very professional, wonderful and kind.

There are many pithy heartfelt phrases re Albus passing away,

I have written a Poem for Albus,

a 2nd poem will be made up of these quotes from others their tributes to him.

Rosie_Scope

Hi @MadMilan2019, thank you for sharing your poem, that's lovely.

The team are in touch with Albus' family, and we have shared the link to this post so they can read all your kind messages. I'm sure they find it comforting to read what a difference he made to everyone on the community. He's very much missed by us all 💜

Trufflecake

So sorry to hear this news

Albus was always ready to help and answer questions. He will be sadly missed.

Condolences to his family and colleagues etc.,

MadMilan2019

Thank you Rosie-Scope indeed, and on behalf of others too. re passing on our tributes for everyone's compassion, and wellbeing.

cdc85

Very shocked & sad to hear of @Albus _Scope passing. As someone who is relatively new to the online forum I could only see how helpful, friendly & polite he was. I'm sure he will be dearly missed by those who personally knew him and those in the online community.

Sending heartfelt condolences to his family, friends & colleagues.

Louloubell1980

So sad. He was so helpful in so many ways. From helping me when i was struggling online, to helping me share my story too. Sending thoughts and best wishes to all who knew him

RHMiller

Albus you made a huge difference to so many of us with your help. Thank you Albus. With the angels now 💚

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1078680#Comment_1078680

Thats beautiful

MadMilan2019

True.

Many people say I write beautiful poetry of all kinds: for socialism, being oneself, nurturing and healing oneself, being kind, and compassionate, madcap humour, about personal and social transformation, about being a total optimist because of surviving 3 near death experiences; I write all this to help myself, and others, the classic Middle Path for Buddhists.

Many disabled and other oppressed groups write beautiful poetry too, it is part of our self healing, comradeship and resistance of stigma. It is therapeutic to write, and healing for others.

Something tells me Albus might have written poetry too?

Catherine21, and everyone one of us here, now, grieving, and celebrating Albus's life are BEAUTIFUL too.

When you see the best in people, and keep doing that more and more, the colours we see are vivid, nature, everything is beautiful, and even our 'enemies' (bitterness is for fools, makes on bad company, repulsive, and destroys that precious thing happiness; our enemies can teach us patience, and deep compassion, quote Jesus, Thich Nat Hanh, Mandela) are beautiful.

We have woke up to the presence of life, love, everything good.

Albus brought out the best in us, as every person who really knows what the value of life, loving, and living means, and he is not the only one.

There is no scarcity of the good, the wholesome, the just and the beautiful, or truths. But anxiety can make us feel we can't, when we CAN,

There is always abundance, and Albus gave us abundance and determination, campaigning strength and caring, and many other wholesome qualities; he was a hero to inspire the best in each of us. He certainly was courageous, and very kind to me.

The best tribute we can pay to him, and other like him, living now is to carry on the work of resistance to stigma, not be bitter, to reverse the PIP ESA benefit reforms - and I TOTALLY believe it CAN be done, if we pull our weight 8m disabled people, 11m elderly and disabled voters; we are a weighty opposition to Labour's Big Benefit Cruel Letdown, if we forge alliances, even deeper than we have already.

The best tribute we can give to Albus is to keep showing up for the best in humanity, the quest for equality, opportunity, sensitivity, caring, and social reforms.

Dear Albus helped me greatly, as he did you Catherine21, as I helped you too, as you thanked me so, as we all help each other.

Let us celebrate his life, by living ours, fully and wholesomely and joyfully, despite the personal and social and political demons.

Catherine21 you are beautiful, as is Albus, I am beautiful, we disabled people are beautiful, this is the antidote to disablism, hatred and stigma.

We KNOW it.

Lets keep going and win justice, our benefits back, and no matter what, court action if necessary.

Albus would want nowt less!

PS

Its time to look after ourselves,

by treats, by meeting with friends, by whatever ways we restore our batteries, in the face of Albus's death.

Rachel_Scope

I'd like to thank you all for continuing to share your lovely words ❤️

MyHappy256

Dreadfully sad, so sorry to hear, he was always very helpful and kind. RIP!

MadMilan2019

I thank everyone for the being the very best in themselves in the light of Albus's death.

Why do the good die young?

Its not fair.

I am moved to tears. It is we are beautiful, seeing the best in each other and resolving to do even better for disabled people is how it should be: the intimate, the friendly, the charming, the charming, and the Beautiful.

No a bit briefer and Zen like:

We endure hatred, harsh words and stigma, cold shoulders, being patronised -

AND we know we are all beautiful, strong, wonderful, and marvellous disabled, and able peoples.

This is Disability, and Mad Pride.

Geddit?

MadMilan2019

Its all bout love

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1078901#Comment_1078901

Thankyou I always held onto the ideation that I wanted to be gone not to feel mental pain anymore not to deal with the constant noise in my head feelings of repulsion towards myself 2023 I hit rock bottom and I came across scope I didnt think I needed people all they brought me was sorrow I had a rocky start and albus was so so patient and kind and understanding he made me look at my actions through his kindness made me relize I didnt need to be so defensive and damn right rude it was a life saver for me I dont honestly know how I would have got through everything and uc without everyones support he truly had the gift of making people feel heard and important after losing my beloved fifi and then hearing the passing of albus made me relize alot of people dont make it in this life tomorrow is not promised and yes your so right we will carry on albus work and help each other as much as we can I really feel for albus family and scope I can feel the loss and seeing posts he done heaven really gained a Angel

MadMilan2019

Dear Catherine21

Again you speak so sincerely, so kindly, so compassionately, so wonderfully from the depths of your heart, and you speak for us.

Albus gave you hope in a dark dungeon, a hell of the mind, when you wanted to die, and were suicidal. Yes the world and its stigmas, and oppression can be CRUEL, VICIOUS in fact. The worlds woes are many, it is a living hell from one aspect.

I, and tens of millions have felt like you used to feel, cynical with the cynicisms of disappointments/ hard knocks, the deep, and crushing hurts of several bad experiences.

You made your confession of being antilife, rude and ego defensive being wrong about the value of life. You know what, I used to be that way too because of 11 years of domestic violence, beaten, bullied by 5 members of my family, 2 sisters 3 brothers, and my mum, sorry 6 members of my family. Poverty, racism, disablism, mentalism, being so let down by the NHS and fair-weather friends, gang violence etc. IT ALL HURT and made me agoraphobic, and my idea of peace was death. Sometimes I still feel that way, but far less often, and reducing.

This is why I keep saying we disabled people need to

- therapise, uplift each other, with words, deeds of kindness, tenderness, wordless comradeship as brothers and sisters, inbetweeners, all sexualities, all disabled people

and

- do the politics too. struggle back with words of love, rhetoric poetry law, knowledge, not words of bitterness. WE CAN DO THIS.

WE CAN DO BOTH and need to. YES WE CAN

And despite, your my, others dark mind-hearts, and the horror of the world, war poverty etc., it is still a wonderful, marvelous, inspiring compassionate, and wise world, in another aspect.

So karma means choice for the good, not grief, evil, or unskillfulness:

You are not a Buddhist like me, still you are a good person, your religion or none, does not matter, you spoke from the heart of Love, the Heart of Compassion, are as good as a few billion disabled people on this blue-green globe.

You are compassionate and wise too, dear Catherine:

Twin Choices

We are what we think.

All that we are arises with our thoughts.

With our thoughts we make the world.

Speak or act with an impure mind

And trouble will follow you

As the wheel follows the ox that draws the cart.

We are what we think.

All that we are arises with our thoughts.

With our thoughts we make the world.

Speak or act with a pure mind

And happiness will follow you

As your shadow, unshakable.

'Look how he abused me and beat me,

How he threw me down and robbed me''.

Live with such thoughts and you live in hate.

''Look how he abused me and beat me,

How he threw me down and robbed me.''

Abandon such thoughts, and live in love.

In this world

Hate never dispelled hate.

Only love dispels hate.

This is the karmic law,

Ancient and inexhaustible.

You too shall pass away.

Knowing this, how can you quarrel?

For the mindful of love, all quarrels, all grief comes to an end.

The Dhammapada: sayings of the Buddha.

Google online for more

Dear Catherine, you and I have found truth of rigorous love, and peace, and many others.

Cynicism and suicidal feelings bring no benefit, to anyone.

Albus had great compassion, he still does right now through our memories of him, personally as a Buddhist I do not think he is dead; he is in a another life, with better conditions, as he was so loving and wise.

However, I respect others views who may disagree totally.

Be very tender with yourselves, be very gentle with yourselves, and others too.

We all deserve compassion, even when we do not, having behaved badly; this is unconditional love, like a mothers, a Buddhas, or Jesus, or of our best friends, and heroes and heroines.

Albus knew this kind of deep, much needed love he gave out so much, and what also really spoke volumes is

he could accept the love and wisdom tenderness he gave out:

You are worthy of the compassion you give to others,

Catherine 21, and all others who do the same are more than worthy of it too.

Is the glass half full, or half empty?

Your twin choice.

Be Kind to yourselves, and everybody else.

Compassion can break all barriers.

Catherine21

https://forum.scope.org.uk/discussion/comment/1078969#Comment_1078969

Wow you been through so much im so sorry it amaze me that the people with the kindest souls have been hurt so much I love what you've written really inspirational and inspiring how we think we feel noting when we really feel everything ❤️

MadMilan2019

''Your wow..'' comment above proves to me absolutely that

it applies to you Catherine21?!

Please meditate, or contemplate on this.

Do you get it you are worthy of the compassion you give out, too.

We are all worthy of the compassion we give out.

You underestimate how wise, and compassionate you are,

and anyone else reading this, who has transformed their lives from bitterness, isolation, unskillfulness to love.

Really, the best thing we can do is keep collecting money for his family.

Please tell us Rosie @scope how it is collected, through what bank account, please give us the account number.

And address to send cards gifts to, messages to for his family,

and

to keep going strong, along with our vulnerabilities as disabled and distressed people.

Paradox, like me, you Catherine, many are extremely, even clinically vulnerable, and yet amazingly strong.

I ask you all to develop, grow even further than you have already, little by little,

drop by drop, step by step to transform your lives, Google mindfulness and mediation, and your towns name and postcode.

and

if you have any suffering, grief or 'mere' irritation, to keep dissolving it into love, and good works.

All demons are diamonds,

and real transformation is gradual mostly.

The best tribute we can pay to Albus and the likes of him is to keep being as courageous, kind, honest, real, down to earth as he was.

In other words, to keep being the vey best in ourselves.

If you need support keep asking for it, get an advocate, keep campaigning for more and better NHS, and other services, and to get the disability benefit cuts reversed.

Finally, if there are no services start a self help/ mutual support group for disabled people, do more of what you enjoy, go for a walk cut the hedge, do organic gardening, and conservation, positive activity, or whatever tickles your fancy (funny expression that, probably by Nora Batty, my mum and auntie Winnie loved it and said it a lot.

Have a laugh at no ones expense, I bet Albus had a great sense of humour, let his colleagues in SCOPE tell us please? BE KIND, in your jokes.

Leigh14

So very sorry. RIP @Albus_Scope

MadMilan2019

Dear Catherine21

You speak inspirationally, wisely and compassionately too.

Albus did too.

Many others have said very kind and inspiring things in their grief too.

We all deserve love and the good things in life.

Whilst we all suffer because we suffer we have a need for mutal love and compassion, get it?

take care of yourselves and others too please.

P[S

Can a staff member of SCOPE ask Albus's family if they could post a picture on this forum,

because it would be nice, lovely in fact, if we could see what he looks like, please

It might provide comfort for people, help them grieve, perhaps?

Mary_Scope

Hi @MadMilan2019

Like Rosie said, the team are in touch with Albus' family and we have shared the link to this post so they can read all the lovely messages about him.

We won't be sharing a photo of Albus, his address or any bank details for a collection or any other personal details but the family know how much of an impact Albus made to people on the community and how missed he is💜