Back from The Brink ...

WelshBlue

I hope everyone is as well as can be with their various ills and the state the world is in …

Decided to post here again after taking a break from the internet and in all honesty, life in general. I thought I was in control of my PTSD and various health diagnosises until a big breakdown brought me crashing to a massive halt. Really was touch and go whether I'd step off because enough was enough. If it wasn't for my brilliant, beautiful wife, fantastic GP's and out of this world Mental Health team I really wouldn't be here without them holding my hand

I don't think any PTSD sufferer is ever out of the woods but … I'm on my 2 feet now … even if my gait is unsteady

I've now got a beautiful new 4 month old grand-daughter to focus on. In a way my life is effectively over … but want to be here as long as possible for her

Writing music has also helped me recover. If anyone is interested …

Not My Burden … about the fight with PTSD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bMBYIfv3YZg&list=RDbMBYIfv3YZg&start_radio=1

Manchester Rain … about losing love and finding something better, weeks after coming from the darkest most dangerous places

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJO-Ft9qopM

if You Could See What I See … for my daughter, who has endured so much trauma of different kinds for someone so delicate, kind and still giving everything as a paramedic despite her MS

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDvlhCmhbmM&list=RDbMBYIfv3YZg&index=2

If anyone else is interested in my music, I'll post some more stuff …

Be safe everyone

Catherine21

Wow wow WOW like your musoc i love it so pleased you come back fighting very talented

Catherine21

Starryeyed you will love this

Catherine21

Oh ok cant comment on one about starmer

Santosha12

It's great to see you back here @WelshBlue. I'm so very sorry though for what you've been going through. Just about nothing normally interrupts my Classic fm. This did I'm glad to say, very glad I listened - thank you for sharing. Truly awe inspiring, you're very, very talented!

'Not My Burden', listened to it three times and absolutely loved it, very beautiful. Both are just great, lyrics and music. Just so you know, 'If you could see what I see' I couldn't locate/access that one. 'Not my Burden' is on the thread twice, not that I minded that! I'm most definitely interested to hear any more that you've wrote and are happy to share.

How very special that you've a four month old, beautiful granddaughter.

Thank you again for sharing your music, as someone with cptsd it resonates, especially 'Not my Burden'.

MW123

@WelshBlue

I really appreciate you sharing this. What you have been through sounds incredibly tough, and it’s clear how much strength it took to get back on your feet after such a frightening point. I’m glad you had people around you who held onto you when things felt unmanageable.

Your granddaughter sounds like a beautiful new focus, and it’s good to hear you have found something creative that helps you steady yourself. All three songs were very powerful, and I really enjoyed them. You’ve put so much honesty and feeling into your music, and it really comes through. You are extremely talented.

Bluebell21

Hi @WelshBlue thank you for sharing your music it is amazing.

I am so very sorry you have been through such a dark time and how hard it has been for you.

You seem to have a great team around you and your wife seems an incredible support for you.

Your new granddaughter will be very special for you and will encourage you in your journey forward.

Take care.

Holly_Scope

Great to have you back @WelshBlue! I'm with you. I've very much been in a similar place so thank you so much for sharing this, and your music. Although for some reason, I can't see Not My Burdon, I'll try again shortly.

It sounds like you have a fantastic family to be super proud of! Congratulations on your granddaughter, and hope to see more from you. Welcome back 😊