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  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 3,233 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    Bless you @Catherine21, really sorry that you've fallen out. I hope you're ok? Sometimes it's difficult to talk about things that are so close to your heart, especially loss. Do you think a little break, and then maybe you can both talk about how you're feeling and try to compromise? In the meantime, please look after yourself ๐Ÿ’›

  • Jacsta
    Jacsta Online Community Member Posts: 28 Connected

    Been feeling really disconnected, especially today. Like I don't feel real. I also think I'm getting a migraine so yay.

    Hope you folks are taking care this rainy weekend

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    He said alot of things today and he meant them like my daughter said I never let my guard down I was constantly masking looking at it now I was making out I was strong minded my fault I suppose we are different if someone broke in front of me even a stranger I'd comfort them and I definitely didn't do anything to start the situation and the truth is I've known him ten years but I always kept him at arms length he's arranging a lift when he goes I probley breakdown not good at perceived abandonment sucks thanks for listening

  • Holly_Scope
    Holly_Scope Posts: 3,233 Scope Online Community Coordinator

    It's good that you're aware of that though, @Catherine21. And sometimes we can't help being this way, it's like protection to us. Remember, you've got a community here if you need us.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    Bless you I really appreciate scope I remember last August I joined God I was desperate and very rude I'm so grateful I was given a chance because this group has helped me more than I ever could of imagined ever I'm so grateful ๐Ÿ™

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    I get that like I'm in a bubble misty it's weird migraines are very debilitating stay in a dark room I hope it eases soon

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,007 Championing

    Hi Catherine, I am so very sorry you have had such a distressing day. You should not have to mask all the time how you are feeling it must be a strain. The disrespect you have been shown is very unkind. If he has never been this way before was there some reason why he acted in this way? had something happened that you are not aware of?

    After such a long friendship does this seem out of character or have there been hints before?

    I hope your migraine eases and you feel a bit better.

    We are here for you, if you want to chat anytime.

    Take care of yourself.

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,067 Championing

    So sorry you have had such an horrendous day @Catherine21

    You shouldn't have to deal with such stress

    There is help out there if you need it

    Hope your feeling better with your migraine

    Please take care

    You have support here

    Sending a gentle hug your way ๐Ÿค—

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,067 Championing

    TAke care too @Bluebell21

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,007 Championing

    Good night everyone. I hope you manage to have a rest tonight. Take care.

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,007 Championing
    edited July 21

    Good morning everyone. I hope you all have a good day. Take care.

  • durhamjaide2001
    durhamjaide2001 Scope Member Posts: 14,200 Championing

    good morning everyone

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    I've been in a bubble for so long protecting myself from the outside world I honestly got myself in so much trouble and just can't do people so without being really aware I was mimicking what I thought would be acceptable when I first met him was awful for me to meet people can't do eye contact long conversation just the feeling of wanting to escape he really persistent and used to joke not in a horrible way he'd say look at me not the wall or the floor if he could see I was uncomfortable he never pushed me I was awful tried everything to push him away I have body dismorphia and is so hard to not mask I'm constantly worried I feel I look like a freak and many other things rewind many years of my bubble and the front door shut and allowing two days a week he's put up with alot tbh he wanted to move in a long time ago I just couldn't and with labour and all that's happening has made me look at myself and how painful life really is and how would I cope again I'm the outside world I've been constantly crying even having outburst just all over the place I know I could drive anyone's patience so like us all it's been a year of hell and I can see after talking to my daughter I've been a nightmare one minute up then down I'm extremely sensitive and seeing psychiatrists she's brought my whole life back to age of three left me wounded sorry going on so he's not a bad person I'm just broken and it hurts knowing I just can't do what people do holidays families even photos not one photo ten years I think the flood gates opened and the persona I created isn't real some of her is but I never show the vunerable side and I did and felt very rejected I've got alot of work to do but no energy it's not I'm lazy for work it's people being around people I can't explain gosh I go on thanks bluebell you have a wonderful way of breaking things down and are extremely caring I appreciate you

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    Your so kind thankyou strawberry hope your well ๐Ÿ˜˜

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,067 Championing

    SEnding supportive hugs your way @Catherine21

  • Strawberry1
    Strawberry1 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 7,067 Championing

    Morning everyone

    Please take care of yourselves

    Best wishes always

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,007 Championing

    Hi @Catherine21 you are a lovely person and try and help other people. You have helped a lot of other members giving updates on any benefit articles.

    You do not have to be like other people you can just be you. Remember why be part of a crowd when you can shine on your own.

    You have let out what you have held in for years and that can only be good you do not have to pretend anymore.

    We are always here for you so when you are struggling lean on us.

    Sam sends a hug.

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    Please take care of yourself.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    Ah thanyou so much ohhhh Sam big cuddles look at those eyes xx

  • Bluebell21
    Bluebell21 Online Community Member, Scope Member Posts: 13,007 Championing

    Hi @Strawberry1 How are you doing today? I hope you have some sunshine and are beginning to improve. Take care of yourself.

  • Catherine21
    Catherine21 Posts: 7,314 Championing

    His coat is so shiny a picture of pure health