How is your day going?

Its a beautiful day here and I'm hoping to go out later.

Its going to be a horrendous weekend as we have the usual holiday makers and we are expecting 25,000 extra people here attending the Boardmasters festival.

Morning... Nice weather today but it will get hotter later

.I am going to my Wednesdays volunteering and I will be back home by 2.30 pm. l will see how I feel afterwards..

Sun is shining

Quiet day at the mill, done a bit of administration work. Then decided to have a wash, then looked in the mirror and ended up having a normal shave, then decided to shave the old head 🪒

Then I put my brave pants on, took two diazepam and headed out for a walk to the local chippy to grab tea.

I’m now just considering, whether or not to reactivate my new Facebook and to let friends back in. But I must admit I’ve got a very strong distrust of the outside world.

I am rather angry with myself. I really hate myself when I misplace stuff. My memory is so bad and this was a shopping list. Now I probably will have to be in the place walking around until I remember the stuff I wrote down. Fact chance. I am sure I did not throw it away . I might never find that list. Hence the reason I really have to tidy up. Anyway I will try to forget about it as it really angers me on how useless I am.. it was an IKEA list. I know it was not big stuff a couple of things the rest is good I think. It is silly but for me Is a mountain. Only people with anxiety knows the feeling . I can not help it..

Fascinating; I always knew of the Scottish ancestry from my mum telling me. Funnily enough, I always felt a strong affinity with Scotland and Northern Ireland too (including the old music so when hearing it felt I knew it /heard it before). It was only when I sent off my DNA test (for Ancestry hobby) that I had links to both and something like 33% Ashkenazian Jew which is from my maternal grandfather who came to Scotland from Poland.

I should rejoin the ancestry thing again. I only really stopped as my sisters would say don't tell me/not interested. But also didn't know how to link up to the different country's Registers to properly delve into it but there must be a way!

Your other post (from The Guardian) re ME/CFS genetic link, reminded me of this as I recall reading something once about the DNA having memory, not sure I really understood it tbh but would be interesting to explore it again.

I'm sadly estranged from my sisters but I can always come here to bore everyone 😴 🤣🤣🤣 or create an Ancestry thread once I actually know something!

I'm really sorry to hear that Ranald. It's a source of great angst to me and sadness and I'm still working on accepting that after we last spoke on 7th January 2024. I would never make contact but if either of them turned up here it would be the happiest day to me. They won't (ones even moved home/I don't know to where so she obviously doesn't want contact 😪). Some things can't be fixed I've come to realise. If their life is better without me in it then so be it. No judgement/criticism from my dogs who are my world so I've a lot to be grateful for too!

Morning all, quiet morning at the mill. Took my Anti Depressants late last night and they didn’t kick in until 3 this morning, so I ended up sleeping on the sofa sat up until six. Just going to have a day relaxing and may sort some more books out later today.

I spotted an interesting documentary that I thought people may like -

really genuine man who wears his heart on his sleeve, does a lot for charity and his local community. 💚

I would much rather watch that, than the documentary earlier the same week.