How is your day going?

Morning... Nice weather today but it will get hotter later

.I am going to my Wednesdays volunteering and I will be back home by 2.30 pm. l will see how I feel afterwards..

Sun is shining

Quiet day at the mill, done a bit of administration work. Then decided to have a wash, then looked in the mirror and ended up having a normal shave, then decided to shave the old head 🪒

Then I put my brave pants on, took two diazepam and headed out for a walk to the local chippy to grab tea.

I’m now just considering, whether or not to reactivate my new Facebook and to let friends back in. But I must admit I’ve got a very strong distrust of the outside world.

I am rather angry with myself. I really hate myself when I misplace stuff. My memory is so bad and this was a shopping list. Now I probably will have to be in the place walking around until I remember the stuff I wrote down. Fact chance. I am sure I did not throw it away . I might never find that list. Hence the reason I really have to tidy up. Anyway I will try to forget about it as it really angers me on how useless I am.. it was an IKEA list. I know it was not big stuff a couple of things the rest is good I think. It is silly but for me Is a mountain. Only people with anxiety knows the feeling . I can not help it..

Fascinating; I always knew of the Scottish ancestry from my mum telling me. Funnily enough, I always felt a strong affinity with Scotland and Northern Ireland too (including the old music so when hearing it felt I knew it /heard it before). It was only when I sent off my DNA test (for Ancestry hobby) that I had links to both and something like 33% Ashkenazian Jew which is from my maternal grandfather who came to Scotland from Poland.

I should rejoin the ancestry thing again. I only really stopped as my sisters would say don't tell me/not interested. But also didn't know how to link up to the different country's Registers to properly delve into it but there must be a way!

Your other post (from The Guardian) re ME/CFS genetic link, reminded me of this as I recall reading something once about the DNA having memory, not sure I really understood it tbh but would be interesting to explore it again.

I'm sadly estranged from my sisters but I can always come here to bore everyone 😴 🤣🤣🤣 or create an Ancestry thread once I actually know something!

I'm really sorry to hear that Ranald. It's a source of great angst to me and sadness and I'm still working on accepting that after we last spoke on 7th January 2024. I would never make contact but if either of them turned up here it would be the happiest day to me. They won't (ones even moved home/I don't know to where so she obviously doesn't want contact 😪). Some things can't be fixed I've come to realise. If their life is better without me in it then so be it. No judgement/criticism from my dogs who are my world so I've a lot to be grateful for too!

Morning all, quiet morning at the mill. Took my Anti Depressants late last night and they didn’t kick in until 3 this morning, so I ended up sleeping on the sofa sat up until six. Just going to have a day relaxing and may sort some more books out later today.

I spotted an interesting documentary that I thought people may like -

really genuine man who wears his heart on his sleeve, does a lot for charity and his local community. 💚

I would much rather watch that, than the documentary earlier the same week.