Mental health

I am sat here at 22.30pm and I’m tearing what little hair I have in place out. I’m also climbing the walls, feeling low, I’ve tried going back on social media and I just start panicking and just find myself saying I can’t do it. I can’t let people back into my life, I can’t talk to people and I’m all honesty I’ve lost trust in the world. I’m supposed to be going to a concert in Nottingham and I’m climbing the walls with that as there is very poor access for people with disabilities and I can’t even speak to or email the venue either. I am honestly about to back out of going and just scrubbing that trip in all its entirety and lose the funds for the ticket and the train fare already laid out.

I’ve got a two night stay in Stafford to watch a show called the UK Rock Orchestra alongside a show in Derby called Dubliners Encore both of which have been fantastic with the access requirements and seating.

Its actually nerve racking that I’m going to all of these shows alone and I’m just questioning myself on that as well as my trip to Scotland in June.

I’m questioning myself sanity in trying to do so much when I haven’t done much this year apart from be in the flat. I’m just truly questioning am I trying to do stuff that the new me is just not cut out to do and I’m actually questioning myself which am I letting win - my mental health or my physical health or both. Just who am I 😢

Glad to hear tests came back clear must be relived

we're here for you

I finally got an answer off the GP he says as all bloods are clear it's likely two of my medications interacting they've basically burst my capillaries causing fluid to leak into the tissue including the brain (it's not dangerous), but explains the lightheadedness part too

he's told me to stop one of the BP pills (amlodipine) immediately stay on (bisproprolol) monitor the BP at home for a fortnight and if it climbs above 150/100 regularly he'll prescribe a replacement.

If the swelling doesn't improve within 14 days he'll order more extensive tests but is sure it's the amlodipine

thanks for all the support @Rachel_Scope @Strawberry1 @Anhedonia @Catherine21

thanks, I'm just annoyed when it could of been solved six months and 5 appointments ago. and it's still a guess a likely one but a guess.

you got to laugh

hugs to you

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